Happy Turkey Day
It’s the annual Thanksgiving tradition of saying grace and what we are thankful for before eating a huge meal. This year I am thankful for the Twitter buddies that I have met over the course of a year, my friends and immediate family members, and that we are not yet in world war. That is a deep fear of mine as the world seems to bombing this country and that and Islamic State seems to get more powerful with each passing day. I hope that it never happens but you never know what the next president has in mind. Eventually, someone is going to start bombing the US because of our lax of security. Americans can think they can sleep at night without these fears but sometimes it does keep me awake.
My back is still out of commission. After I had my dinner, I had a sneeze attack that further aggravated by back. Then continued to sneeze when I got to my room. I am HURTING. I just took my last two pain pills until tomorrow. I took one of the strong medicine pills this morning so that I could make it downstairs for my meal. I am hoping to sleep through the night and then tomorrow I can get my refill. I hope that the pharmacy is open at its normal times. I have no idea if they will be on holiday schedule or not. I know they are closed today.
I sent out an email to my family and friends wishing them a Happy Turkey day. I usually send out text messages but I can’t sit long enough to do that. Just writing this blog is torture. But I have a high pain tolerance and as long as I don’t make any sudden moves, I am pretty good sitting the way that I am. I was hoping the storm we had yesterday was part of the cause of my pain but it passed, but my pain did not. I hope that it will pass but I think the sneeze attacks that I had really messed up my healing. I will be grateful to have my pain meds back in stock tomorrow!
I know I should be re-reading “Managing Suicidal Risk” so that I can write more about it. But lately, I haven’t been inclined to read anything. I tried reading “suicide myths” by Thomas Joiner last night and had to put the book down, mid-chapter, because I lost interest half way through. I just am not up for reading and sitting up for more than twenty minutes lately has been hurting my back so then I have to lie down. I know I should be trying to do some PT exercises and I do do them, they just don’t seem to help. Nothing really is helping me and that is kind of scaring me. I was hoping the baclofen would help me and it hasn’t, really. I have added Ativan and that just helps to relax me enough so I can sleep.
I am really torn. I have been listening to Ed Sheeran’s album “X” and so far the two songs I have heard, have been dope! I really like his voice and his songs. But I am short this month with cash so I can’t get my music. I got paid my royalties today, a day early. I really want to start saving but I have a feeling I will need to spend it for some emergency. Maybe I can get it next month when I get my birthday money.
My friggen therapist had to bring up my birthday as it will be the last day we talk before the holidays. She will be out for about two weeks. She asked me what am I doing that day. I told her I have no idea. It is just another day to me. My mother has asked me what I plan on having for birthday cake but I can’t decide what I want. I think I want a marble pound cake would be nice with icing. Or I can go with my favorite, yellow cake with chocolate frosting. I just don’t know what I want. Then there was a recipe for a cheesecake cake that I thought would be super. Now I have to find it so I can write down the recipe. I have gotten a few good recipes from Facebook. When my back is better, I plan on making my pumpkin cupcakes and ice them with cheesecake frosting. I am really looking forward to making those.
All this talk about cakes, is making me want something sweet. So hope all my US blog reader had a wonderful Thanksgiving!!