Author Archives: G. Collerone

About G. Collerone

suicide attempt survivor writing about the hopelessness that accompanies depression that no one likes to talk about. also writing about my daily struggle with chronic pain and how it affects my suicidality

a night of no sleep but baked during the day

A night of no sleep but baked during the day I didn’t go to sleep till around 6 or 7 am. Pain was keeping me up. Different parts of my foot kept acting up. It was making me very restless. … Continue reading

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rainy shitty day

Rainy shitty day It’s been raining off and on most of the day. My back has been a casualty of it. My lower back has been hurting most of the day. Despite this, I took a shower and made pancakes … Continue reading

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Exhausting, painful, and depressing day

Exhausting, painful, and depressing day I did not want to get out of bed today but I knew that if I didn’t, I’d get slapped with a $190 charge from my therapist for not canceling within 24 hours. It was … Continue reading

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Pain continues

I have been sleeping on and off all day. Pain has continued. My ankle hurts so bad. I just want to scream.  Had a series of bad dreams, each one worse than the other. I don’t want to be anymore. … Continue reading

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Foot Pain, Ankle Pain, Psychache, when will it end?

I feel asleep around 2100 only yo wake up 3.5 hours later. I had to use the bathroom. While I was there, I figured I might as well brush my teeth. My foot started hurting so I rushed. I went … Continue reading

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