Tired and grumpy and cranky and and…
I have been up since fucking 2am. I woke up after a few hours sleep. It was all I was going to get. I tried to go to sleep around 3 but couldn’t let my brain rest. It kept going back and forth over what I was going to do and then I thought since I was up, I might as well stay the fuck up and do the things that I needed to do. I left the house around 0730 or so and had breakfast at Starbucks. I had a pistachio latte which was too sweet. I should have ordered my mocha. Anyways, after I finished drinking my drink, I left for the hospital. I got my blood work done. I was kind of tired as my legs just didn’t want to fucking move. But I pushed myself.
I went to UMB after the bloodwork. I saw that the building my class is in is right on the bus stop so I was glad. I then went inside and was told to go to a building across campus for my ID. It was a fucking hike. I thought the 2nd floor would connect me back to the main building but it was closed for construction at the library point. When I left 15 years ago, there was no access from the ground floor to the library. The stairs were blocked off and they still were. I hope by the time the semester starts, they have it opened again. I asked the young kid if I needed a sticker for the library access and he had no clue what I was talking about. I guess I just show my ID.
I walked back to the main building and I was seriously struggling. I was out of breath and my legs hated me. My hamstrings were so tight. I could feel them pull on the back of my knees. I had to stop and rest several times and by the time I got to the main building, the bus left. I had to wait another 15 mins for the one. I sat outside as it was nice out. I took some pics of the water but it turned out just to be the skyline. I couldn’t really see as I was blinded by the sun/glare. It was a walk uphill to the station. I walked slow. I sat down in the waiting area for the train. I was really out of breath and wish I had brought my inhaler as I was wheezing. Train came like five minutes later and I snoozed for most of the ride.
I came home and tried to rest but I was restless. I kept going downstairs because I had to use the bathroom. I then went to the basement to get my ID thing from work that I had used. The bin it was in was against the wall, making it difficult to open the drawers. I managed to sneak out my ID. I took my work badge and café card and put it back in the drawer. I thought I had a UMB lanyard but I couldn’t see it. I will get one at the bookstore when classes start. I got one of my textbooks in the mail today. It was kind of heavy. I thought I ordered a paperback but got the hardcover. I just hope that the 4th edition isn’t much different from the 3rd.
I am tired and cranky. My sister wanted my cappuccino mix so I brought it down. We talked for a bit about the house. Our taxes went up like $9K/year. I don’t know what the insurance is and the water bill will be coming in soon. I am kind of freaking out because I have to pay more. The money I was hoping to save is going towards the house. Fucking sucks. I got my bill from UMB. There is a credit which I hope to use for a summer class. I don’t know if that history of psychology class is still only in the summer or what.
I want to take my meds but it is too early. I am restless from being overtired so I am cranky. My legs hurt and my foot is flared up from walking so much. I am glad I don’t have to do that every week. I just need to get some groceries tomorrow. I am out of half and half and that is a priority! I need my coffee. My labwork is good. I am not anemic so the reason for my fatigue is most likely depression and insomnia. I can stop taking the iron pills which I am glad. I think it has been causing my stomach to be upset. My diet hasn’t changed at all so I am just hoping it is the pill. I see my psychiatrist next week. I hope he get my message that I need him to refill my Effexor 75mg. For some reason the 150 mg got put in. I will straighten it out tomorrow, I hope. Stupid pharmacy didn’t put my insurance in so it’s like $122. I am not picking it up as I have a full bottle of 150mg. Stupid auto-refill.
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