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Saturday Blog 09052026

I slept most of the night and didn’t get up till noon. I had coffee and breakfast as I was hungry. I also made the pup some eggs. She loves them. I didn’t put any seasoning in them. I did in mine when I took them from the pan. I couldn’t eat them plain. I played my game and was on social media for a bit. Then I brushed my teeth and stayed with the puppy for a bit. She was uninterested so I went up to my room to do some studying.

I went over the answers I got wrong so I would know the right answers. Now I am going to write out the exam so I know the material. I did find an error on the answer key. I emailed the lecturer but I don’t think she is going to do anything about it. I only have until tomorrow to study and the rest of the night tonight. I am kind of tired but I know once I get started, I will wake up.

Tomorrow I am supposed to go with my family for brunch at one of our favorite places to eat that unfortunately is closing next month. They have the best chicken fingers that they call wings but they really are just fingers as they don’t have bones. I kind of want to order a turkey club to go as a sandwich to have for lunch on Monday. I have to be fasting for my CT so plan to eat afterwards. I just hope I can wake up tomorrow morning for the brunch.

A couple of hours ago, I got cramps on the left side of my chest. Now I have muscle pain. I took some ibuprofen. I also plan on taking some Ativan tonight but after I do the studying. I hate that after three years I still get pain in my chest and right under my scar still hurts if I touch it. I don’t know what to do to ease the pain. The muscles have been knotted up for so long.

I will only see my therapist once next week because I have a lot of appts. It’s going to be a busy week. I am glad I don’t have lab though. It give me a little break between the appts.

I woke up around 3 am and stayed up. I couldn’t go back to sleep. I had around 4 hours of sleep. I think I will be taking a trazodone tonight.

I had one cup of coffee. I meant to have a second but never made it. I hung out with the pup most of the day. I did some studying despite a pup that wanted attention. She has been on me all day. She got a little bit too affectionate and ended up scratching my neck and chest. She was like trying to do biscuits. I had to laugh. She was so funny.

I took a little nap that helped. I am now listening to the ballgame. It just started.

Two classes and a final left

I went to class tonight and had to leave early because it gave me a panic attack with the review of the exam. The translation of 5’ -> 3’ with mRNA and then anti codon messed me up. I just couldn’t come up with the correct answer.

It was cold when I left campus. I was wearing shorts and a tshirt. The temp dropped and it was drizzly. I still had a stomach ache so I just took my meds without food when I came home. I am so tired. I am glad my homework is done. Tomorrow I will be seeing a friend I haven’t seen in more than 20 years. I will finally meet his husband. I cannot wait to see them. We will be going to the North End for some Italian food. I already forgot the restaurant we are going to.

I almost slept through my therapy appt. She called and I was like oh shit. It was like 10 minutes past. My five minutes was twenty. We talked after I logged on which thankfully was quickly. She was concerned about my bouts of suicidality and when I would need more support. I don’t need it right now and I told her so. It isn’t sticking around or lasting long periods of time. I told her on Monday there was a study on safety planning. I still haven’t had a chance to read it. I just been so tired. Last night I couldn’t sleep though. I kept thinking of doing some reading but I know if I do, I will be up an hour or two before I become sleepy enough to sleep.

After therapy I had my neuro appt. I asked her about Alzheimer’s disease as it runs in my family. She said the first thing is to do a cognitive test so she scheduled it after my surgery month. I can’t believe it will happen in a few weeks. I have my CT scan on Mon. It is earlier than I thought it was. I hope I can get a sub before I have to leave for it because I can’t eat two hours before it. I don’t know if I will have to drink contrast or not. I also see my pcp next week. A lot of appts next week.