midnightdemons7

I was bad at taking my pain meds so was in a lot of pain today. I mostly stayed in bed. I had therapy in my niece’s room. Honey kept me company and after she went for a walk, she started kissing me, which my therapist saw. It was sweet.

My therapist and I talked about my suicidality when I was a kid. I didn’t know why I wanted to talk about it. I was in pain and it was hard for me to get comfortable but the session was almost over. I am sure we’ll pick it up next week.

I stayed with Honey for an hour or so. She wanted to go out so I let her out and stayed out with her. Then my sister came home and we went inside. It was really warm today in the 80s. I had some small things to eat. Then I ordered junk food. I wanted some chocolate chip cookies and ice cream. I ended up just eating a few cookies. Honey wanted some but we told her no. Didn’t stop her from sniffing lol. She didn’t get into anything.

The surgeon called me today to check on me. He said to take Miralax twice a day to go. I haven’t gone yet. Then my pcp’s nurse called about the LTD paperwork I sent. They wanted to know why they had to fill it out. Told them it was because of my crps and back issues. They don’t have a previous record. I don’t know why that is as it’s done every year.

Sox lost today. Bello got sent down to Worcester. He needs an adjustment. Just awful this year. He was good last year. This year he is pathetic. They are still in last place. I don’t see them leaving that spot anytime soon. Will need a string of wins for that to happen.

I had a lot of pain last night. It kept me up and woke me up several times last night. I didn’t sleep well at all. I was alternating my pain meds with Tylenol.

Pain is a little better today but I am wicked tired. I tried to sleep but there has been a stupid beeping noise from construction trucks all fricken day. So annoying.

I haven’t been eating. I tried to eat some food I ordered but it was so salty. I had a protein smoothie so that was good. I haven’t had an appetite. But I am drinking fluids. I wish I bought another thing of apple juice. I like drinking it.

My sister came home from work sick. She had a cough attack and then she came home. She better not give her cold to me.

I want to take a shower because I am all itchy for some reason. I’ve also been sweaty. It’s 83F today. But I can’t get my stitches wet. I need to get some wipes to clean myself.

I am wicked constipated and need to take some miralax. I don’t know if the pain near my lower abdomen is because of stitches or being backed up. I resumed taking senna but it hasn’t worked yet. I know taking my pain meds is making things worse.

I have therapy tomorrow. If I am feeling up to it, I am going to talk about my suicidality in the past.

post op day 1

I am wicked sore where the incisions are. The one by my belly button doesn’t hurt as much as the ones on my stomach. It is difficult moving around. I haven’t really eaten anything. I had some butternut squash last night for dinner. It kind of upset my stomach but my stomach was upset anyway. I tried to have a turkey sandwich post op but only had a few bites. I really wasn’t doing well post op as my oxygen levels dropped and I had to stay in the PACU until they were up. I was on oxygen the whole time I was post op until I left. I don’t know why they dropped.

I am sitting up ok. As long as I seem to stay still, I don’t hurt. My stomach is a little swollen but that is to be expected. I have like 5 incisions, the bigger one on my belly button. They are all steri-stitched so I don’t need them taken out. They will just drop off. I can’t take a shower for a couple of weeks. That sucks. I am going to have to get some wipes. I don’t see the surgeon until the end of the month.

I was reading my book the other night and it was getting so good but the chapter was so long I had to put it down. She usually writes short chapters. She still made me laugh. And of course there is a twist now. I love the writing.

The puppy has been gentle with me so far. I think she senses that I am hurt. My bitch sister is home sick. She has a cold. Hope she stays in her room as I don’t want to get sick. She had to pick up the dog poop as I couldn’t bend down to do it. It hurts. I have been eating less this week so far. I just don’t have an appetite.

I had my first cup of coffee this week. It was so good. I love coffee. I don’t want to have another cup for fear of upsetting my stomach. I need to brush my teeth. I haven’t figured out how to do this as the vanity is kind of tall and I need to lean over to reach the sink handles and the faucet. It is going to hurt, I know that much.

I had my gallbladder out today and I am wicked sore. I just took a pain med. I had something to eat even tho my stomach was upset. I had to eat something for the latuda. I had a little turkey sandwich after post op but I didn’t eat more than a couple bites.

My oxygen was low after surgery so they had to keep me longer than intended. I tried to sleep but the nurse kept coming in.

I had a little snooze when I came home. Hope i can sleep tonight.