midnightdemons7

2^nd day of heatwave

Today was much hotter than yesterday. My poor pup wanted to go outside. I let her out for a few minutes and then called her back in. She just wanted to lay in the sun but it was too hot for her.

I woke up several times during the night to pee. I was annoyed. Each time it felt like my bladder was going to burst. I wouldn’t mind if I had been drinking but I wasn’t. Stupid bladder. I got up around 11 and had coffee. I wasn’t really hungry. Or at least, what I wanted (corn muffin) I didn’t have.

The puppy was active today as she didn’t stay in her room too much. She really wanted to stay on the porch. I felt so bad that she couldn’t be outside. We cuddled and played for a bit. I had my call with my DMH case worker. Honey was curious as there was a voice coming from my phone. It was too funny. After the meeting, I had lunch. Then I took a nap. I put some music on and just fell asleep. First time I took a nap in ages. Puppy was at my feet or lying near me the whole time.

I woke up when my sister came home from work. She was so loud I got a headache. Needless to say, I never showered today. I am back taking the Robaxin tablets for the spasms in my back. It seems to be helping. I hate that I have to take it around the clock though in order for it to work. I have my alarm set for it.

Did not have a good night

Last night I was overtired and couldn’t get to sleep because I was in so much pain. In addition to my CRPS pain, my thigh decided to start something. The muscles were twitching and sending pain down my leg. I was freaking out about it. I had to take some Ativan to calm down or I would have gone to the emergency room or something. I messaged my pcp and the dumb nurse sends me exercises for my calf. I am like, my calf isn’t the issue. Then he calls me after I say I want to be seen and he says the exercises will help. How if they are targeting the wrong muscle group?? I didn’t argue with him on the phone because I was tired and I just wanted to make the appt and get off the phone.

I went to get my blood drawn. My white count is back in normal range. I picked up my meds at the different pharmacies and bought some food stuff. They had ramen noodles so I got that and my Japanese rice dish. I also got some ice cream sandwiches because I wanted some ice cream. As I was walking home, it started to drizzle. I had a feeling thunderstorms were going to happen so I walked quickly home before I got drenched.

I made the Japanese rice dish for supper and then had an ice cream sandwich for dessert. I am wicked tired. I didn’t sleep too good last night. I was up for nearly 22 hours. I woke up to pee around 8 I think and then I set my alarm, or at least I thought I did, for 1030 so I could get dressed and get my blood work done. It never went off so I guess I didn’t set it right. I woke up around 1. I had coffee and a PB&J sandwich. Honey wanted some but I know she doesn’t really like peanut butter unless it is with other stuff that my sister makes. I think I am going to take my night med around 7 and go to bed. I know it is early and I run the chance of waking up at 2am but I am dead tired and cranky. I am still in a lot of pain with the CRPS.

My friend posted that she got a s’mores coffee at Starbucks so I am going to get one tomorrow. I also found out Taylor is getting married this weekend!! I am so excited and will be on social media looking for pics. I am supposed to go to a BBQ on Thursday (think this is the rehearsal dinner) so I probably am not going to go. Friday is the wedding!!

Did not have a good night

Last night I was overtired and couldn’t get to sleep because I was in so much pain. In addition to my CRPS pain, my thigh decided to start something. The muscles were twitching and sending pain down my leg. I was freaking out about it. I had to take some Ativan to calm down or I would have gone to the emergency room or something. I messaged my pcp and the dumb nurse sends me exercises for my calf. I am like, my calf isn’t the issue. Then he calls me after I say I want to be seen and he says the exercises will help. How if they are targeting the wrong muscle group?? I didn’t argue with him on the phone because I was tired and I just wanted to make the appt and get off the phone.

I went to get my blood drawn. My white count is back in normal range. I picked up my meds at the different pharmacies and bought some food stuff. They had ramen noodles so I got that and my Japanese rice dish. I also got some ice cream sandwiches because I wanted some ice cream. As I was walking home, it started to drizzle. I had a feeling thunderstorms were going to happen so I walked quickly home before I got drenched.

I made the Japanese rice dish for supper and then had an ice cream sandwich for dessert. I am wicked tired. I didn’t sleep too good last night. I was up for nearly 22 hours. I woke up to pee around 8 I think and then I set my alarm, or at least I thought I did, for 1030 so I could get dressed and get my blood work done. It never went off so I guess I didn’t set it right. I woke up around 1. I had coffee and a PB&J sandwich. Honey wanted some but I know she doesn’t really like peanut butter unless it is with other stuff that my sister makes. I think I am going to take my night med around 7 and go to bed. I know it is early and I run the chance of waking up at 2am but I am dead tired and cranky. I am still in a lot of pain with the CRPS.

My friend posted that she got a s’mores coffee at Starbucks so I am going to get one tomorrow. I also found out Taylor is getting married this weekend!! I am so excited and will be on social media looking for pics. I am supposed to go to a BBQ on Thursday (think this is the rehearsal dinner) so I probably am not going to go. Friday is the wedding!!

Painfully long day

I’ve been up since 5am. I woke up to pee and couldn’t go back to sleep. So I stayed up. My CRPS pain started soon as I was fully awake. My foot bones have been aching me all day and feel like they are being crushed.

As I suspected, my pcp sent me a message about the surgeon’s appt. I need to get my blood work done tomorrow because the rest of the week is going to be super hot and I am not leaving my AC. I told them about my flare and depression being bad. Also told them I don’t have confidence in my psychiatrist anymore. Guy sees me for 15 mins and then schedules an appt three months later. What kind of care is that? My PCP sees me more than I see him. Eventually I will find a new one but I will stick with him for now.

I had therapy today. We talked about my puppy, who is home again but is down because her parents aren’t here. I have decided to take over for her care. I don’t know how I am going to afford it but I will take her to the vet and get her the care she needs. I am also looking for mobile grooming so she can get a bath and her nails trimmed. We talked about my psychiatrist and she was not happy with the appt being three months away. We talked about seeing someone else but I am not ready for change. I also talked about my pain and how difficult it was just brushing my teeth and then trimming my beard. My back flared up and I had to sit down. I wasn’t standing too long, maybe 15-20 mins. Lately my back has been acting up and I don’t know why. It keeps cramping on me. I can’t sit for long anymore like I used to. I am waiting to see my pcp to bring it up. I see her next month. I went over my appts for the month and forgot I have an ultrasound scheduled but I don’t remember why. I think it is for the cyst in my kidney but I could be wrong.

I felt ok after therapy. I felt validated for the things I talked about. She understood pain and she doesn’t want me to exacerbate it. I ended up taking pain meds because I couldn’t stand my foot pain anymore. My right knee is acting up for whatever the fuck reason. I hate when I get pain in areas of my body that are well. I did take a shower and had to sit after I washed up. I had to rest. I wanted a hot shower as it felt good. I rested on my niece’s bed and then I took the puppy outside. I stayed outside with her until she wanted to come inside. It wasn’t that hot outside because of the wind. It was 80 degrees but no humidity. A really nice day. I hope there is no humidity tomorrow. I don’t want to come home to need another shower.