midnightdemons7

Who knew adult field trips would be so fun??

I woke up before 2am to pee and then I had a sneeze attack and couldn’t go back to sleep for the life of me. I tried. I had something to eat around 630 and I had a coffee. My bitch sister bitched about everything to me, telling me to take the trash and recycle out, clean the counters, etc. I just wanted to drink my coffee in peace. I went back to bed as I was getting a headache. The headache turned into a migraine and my class was in jeopardy. I really wanted to go to the museum. I slept for a bit but then I was so tired, I didn’t want to leave the house. My migraine was gone thanks to meds but I felt shitty. I got dressed and made my way to the bus stop as the bus would be there in like 10 mins. Thank god I already had my outfit picked out.

I got to the area where the museum was and got lost of course. I wasn’t familiar with the area but knew some landmarks. I saw the Hood bottle which is near where I should be. I started walking toward that. The ship was there so I was in the right direction. The museum was on a drawbridge in the middle of this street over water. No Boston skyline could be seen. I took a pic of the ship and other surrounding things. It was interesting. I wanted to sit but there was no place for me to sit. I ended up standing most of the 45 minute tour. My legs were killing me and so were my feet. Then I had to walk back to the train station. I walked with one of my classmates. He was from the south. I had bought an iced tea but it was unsweetened. He couldn’t understand it. I smiled. I understood how southerners liked their sweet tea.

I came home exhausted. I had to pick up my meds. While I was there I also picked up something to eat. I like this Stouffer’s chicken romano thing. It has pasta and a chicken patty. It is pretty good and filling. I didn’t make it right away when I was home. I was tired and had to rest. My legs were killing me so bad. I knew I was going to have to pee soon because I drank the tea and then filled the cup up with water then drank a cran-grape drink on the way home. I played with the puppy, who was receptive of my affection. Yesterday, she could care less. Her mommy was home and that was the difference.

I am wicked tired and I am hurting. I am not doing anything tomorrow except for the readings for my gender class and maybe my networking class. I am trying to go over the stuff I missed but I keep getting distracted. It is boring stuff but I got to get through it. I still have to force myself to get to campus on Mondays. This coming Monday is a holiday so I don’t have to go. This class flooding is so difficult and threw a wrench into my semester.

I woke up around 530 to pee and had a hard time getting back to sleep. Intook my meds. I thought about getting up around 7 but there was nothing I wanted to do today.

I eventually went back to sleep for a few hours but woke up with bad dreams. I got up and had a cup of coffee. I let Honey out. She did her business. Was cold today. I didn’t want to go out. I’ll be going out tomorrow for class. We are going to the Boston Tea Party Museum and I can’t wait. Professor said to be there by 1 as the tour starts at 115. I will be there early as I am not sure how long it will take me to walk to where it is. Directions say 7 mins but that is for abled bodied people. Might take me twice as long.

I still need to work on my homework. Just polish it up a bit. I will turn it in when I see my professor tomorrow.

I made tater tots and a PB&J for my lunch and dinner. I didn’t feel like cooking. I wanted to make some eggs but I couldn’t be bothered. I laid down with the puppy most of the afternoon until my niece came home and then she went to her dogbed. I’ve had a relaxing day.

Cousin’s get together

My med alarm went off and I didn’t want to get out of bed. I stayed in for another couple of hours before I got up. I took my meds then went downstairs to pee. My sister barked at me soon as I was in her sight asking if I was going to the get together and if I was going to shower. Then we fought over the laundry as she put clean clothes in the dirty pile. I don’t know what she did with my niece’s clothes that were on top of the clean towels. I told her this is why we don’t have laundry detergent because you keep rewashing clothes all the time. She got mad and I didn’t fucking care. I also swore at her and she said it was Sunday. I don’t give a fuck, if I swear I swear. So that is how my day started off. I didn’t want to be with her but had no choice. I had to see my aunt as it might be the last time I see her alive as she is up there in age and she was going back to Florida.

I showered and then played my game until it was time to go. I had my outfit all picked out even if my pants were very wrinkled. To my surprise, they fit better than I thought. My waistline has decreased as the pants were a 38 and I still had room. I am probably a 36 now. I wish the scale was telling me something different but it is not. Last I checked on Fri, my weight had gone up, again. I don’t like scales.

I got dressed and then headed downstairs. My puppy came home a few minutes before I went downstairs so I didn’t have time to greet her. I did take a pic of her when I came home because she was just too cute. I fed her the chicken I made the other day but didn’t eat. I put in her kibble so she would eat both.

I was so fricken nervous about meeting my aunt. I hadn’t seen her in years and she definitely hasn’t heard about my transition to a man. She thought I was my baby sister’s son. She was shocked to find it was me, G. She must be having a little dementia or memory issues because she kept asking the bitch sister if she was her goddaughter. And who was I. Overall, I had a good time. The food was good. I took some home because there was plenty left. I talked to my cousin who went to Ohio State. He told me about how their system ran and also the University of Utah where he got his Master’s degree in architecture. We talked about college for a bit. I am so close to graduating. We also talked about getting the credits to graduate. He had earned the credits but because he didn’t have a major, he couldn’t graduate for his undergrad studies. I am trying to earn the minimum so I can graduate.

I got my homework done for my gender studies class. It was tough. I am glad I am seeing my therapist tomorrow. Lots to talk about because I have gained weight and am upset about it. I think I have an eating disorder of some kind but I don’t know what. I am feeling depressed even though I had an okish day. I am tired. I inadvertently had some sangria at my cousin’s. I thought it was fruit punch. It was ok but then the alcohol hit me and I was stupid. My brain was numb and I tried to stay awake. I just want to snooze.