midnightdemons7

Hot Wed 27052026

Today has been really warm. It is like 84F. My room is 81F with the ceiling fan on. I tried to make some headway towards the window by getting the recycle out of the way. There was more stuff than I realized there. Going to take a day to sort out. Hopefully by the weekend, I will have my AC working.

I was late in giving my T shot again this time around. I meant to do it in the morning but it slipped my mind. I had therapy this afternoon and we talked about one of my exes. It was a good talk. I am trying to set boundaries as I don’t want to be hurt again. We also talked about upcoming surgery and how my appt went yesterday. I told her it was kind of weird I didn’t get a slew of emails for our future appts. Maybe they will come later.

I wanted to take a shower before therapy but it never happened. So I will take one after I write this blog. I bought some Gatorade and more half and half. I had my last chicken pattie for lunch. I have no idea what I am having for dinner. I am not really hungry.

I finally got my pain meds squared away with my pcp. She put in a different script and it should be able to go through tomorrow. I will pick it up after my DMH worker’s appt. I plan on having a Starbucks drink tomorrow. I need a reward for finishing the semester even if grades aren’t back yet. UGH. Watch them come in on Friday, the day they are due.

I might read tonight after my shower. I wanted to read when I was up at 3am but I didn’t want to get all excited and be up all day. I managed to get some sleep afterwards around 6 or so.

My day

I got up around 930. I had a very weird dream that seemed to go on forever and woke up with a headache. I took my meds and then went to the kitchen. The puppy wanted out and immediately laid in the sun. She is so cute. She stayed for a while until I was half way through my coffee. I had a couple of hours till I had to get ready to leave for my appt. It was going to be a hot day.

I misplaced my headphones and couldn’t remember where I put them. They were hiding under my hoodie. I put them near my wallet so I wouldn’t forget them. About the time I had to leave, my bowels decided to go. I grabbed my sneakers and my stuff and hurried to the bathroom. I hate when they decide to go at weird times. But I am glad I went as it has been a few days.

I forgot my hat so went up to my room to get it and then left the house. At the end of the street I went down, they were doing work on the fire hydrant again. It was all carved out. I have no idea what the fuck they are doing. They just put new asphalt there. Then on my way to the bus stop another area they just paved was torn up. I had to walk across the path as there was no where else to go other than the street. I had three minutes before the bus came so it was good timing.

I met the surgeon and he is nice. I like him a lot. He answered my questions and repeated that this was not urgent. I could put it off while I am not having symptoms but somewhere down the line, I will need to have this surgery. So I decided to move forward with it. We talked about my pain meds and he agreed to talk to my pcp about prescribing it this week. I hope she does before Friday.

My check came in late so I wasn’t able to pay my cell bill until today. I am a day late in paying it. I will be charged a few dollars more next month as a fee for being late. It was out of my control as my pay day was Sun and then Mon was a holiday.

After my appt, I picked up my meds. I didn’t pay attention to the time. They were closed for their lunch break. I had to wait 15 minutes. My back didn’t like that at all. It has been giving me grief all day for some reason. I think the change in temps is causing havoc with my pain levels. All I did today while I was out was sweat. I need a shower as my sister noticed I smelled. I will take one tomorrow. I cleared some recycling off my bed but wasn’t able to bring more down. I need to take some stuff down so I can access the window and my AC. It is supposed to be warm next week and I will need my room cool to be comfortable.

My allergies were off the rocker today. The pollen count was high and on the bus ride home some pollen was floating around. I got wind of it and started sneezing. Luckily, it was just three sneezes and not twenty. I came home tired and sleepy. I had to eat something. I had leftover potatoes and sausages but it was mostly potatoes. Then I rested with the puppy.

Memorial Day 2026

A shout out to the 13 service men and women that died this year due to dummy in chief’s war with Iran. They would still be alive today if the GOP weren’t cowards. But to all the service people that died, I am thinking of them on this day of remembrance.

I’ve had an okayish day despite being grumpy this morning. My bitch sister cleaned the kitchen and the smells caused a sneeze attack. I have not recovered as my throat is still sore and my nose is still stuffy. I have been trying to drink fluids but without Gatorade, it’s been hard. Plain water is difficult for me. I can sometimes drink it without a problem but sometimes I can’t because I need the sugar. I am a sugar addict I will admit it.

I’ve played with the dog today. She briefly got out unsupervised but we got her back in. My sister took her for a walk and she stayed in the yard for a bit. She got plenty of treats from my brother in law.

I tried to clear my bed off today but I wasn’t feeling it. I took some stuff off. The bag that I have been using as a recycle is heavy. I will need to be careful bringing it downstairs. It was raining this morning but then cleared up by the afternoon. It is warm and sunny out. I have no idea where I am going to put my Bio book or my laptop. That is really the only stuff remaining on my bed that needs a “home”.

I had a burger for dinner again. I want to read my book for an hour or so. I need something funny. I got the beginnings of a headache so we’ll see how far that goes. I had therapy today. We didn’t talk about anything specific because I couldn’t think of anything to talk about. I still need to read that safety plan article. Maybe I will read it tomorrow. Grades still haven’t been posted. I am getting anxious.

I see my surgeon tomorrow and have about a half dozen questions. I hope he has time to answer them. I don’t know if I will be doing the consents in his office or day of surgery. I am glad the appt is in the afternoon. I don’t think I can do a morning appt. I got up around 10 today and was so grumpy until I had my coffee. I hate mornings. They should be illegal.

Usual day

I woke up a few times during the night to pee. I was able to get back to sleep but had the most weirdest dreams. I finally got up around 10 as I had to pee again. I took my meds and then went downstairs. My niece and her ex were still here so the puppy was happy. Then my niece left followed by the ex. She didn’t know what to do with herself. I stayed with her after my coffee. Then the ex came back and stayed for a bit.

I managed a shower and took my beard down. It is cold in my room. I managed to clear one corner of my bed. It has been raining most of the day so I wasn’t able to bring the recycling out. Tomorrow is supposed to rain too so we’ll see if I am able to bring anything out.

Tomorrow is a holiday so I have one more day to put up with my bitch sister. She has been driving me crazy today. Just stupid stuff. She wants me to get the puppy a raw hide bone. I do buy them but she tears them to shreds in seconds. I will have to look for the bones I bought for her before. She pooped outside my bedroom door today. She was mad at me for something.

The Sox played a poor game. They were swept by the Twins. At home. Just awful.

I have been dealing with brain fog for most of the day. It is making me so tired. I slept pretty good last night. I guess I am still hungover from my 24+ hrs of being up. I see my therapist tomorrow. I am glad. There is something reassuring seeing her. I have no idea what I am going to talk about tomorrow. I have been so focused on getting through the last few days and clearing my bed, I haven’t thought much of anything else. I have a few appts this week, including therapy. I am seeing the surgeon Tues and Thurs I have my meeting with my DMH case worker. I am hoping to buy the stuff I need for the chicken casserole I want to make. It is supposed to warm up tomorrow and be in the 80s again in the middle of the week then cool down again.

Grades still haven’t been sent yet. I am curious to see what my final grade is. Grades are due Friday. I should pass.