Saturday Blog 22082026
I slept most of the day because I couldn’t sleep for whatever reason last night. I got up to pee around 1130pm and I was up all night. I finally took some Ativan around 4am. I thought about reading but I had a damn headache. My hopes for attending the suicide webinar didn’t happen. Tomorrow is the last day but there isn’t anything that is piquing my interests. I don’t know the speakers.
My sister ordered pizza so I had some of that. I had something to eat with my coffee early today. I had two cups of coffee. I tried listening to the ballgame but my head couldn’t take the commentary. I am feeling tired but still have some energy to be awake. I am going to read my book.
All week, I have been going to bed before 9pm. I just have been feeling super tired. My mood has been so so today. Honey is with her dad. He came to pick her up and I am sad. I haven’t been thinking about suicide the past few days. I just been down. I feel guilty most of the time and like a failure. I feel like I have let everyone down. I feel useless. I try to distract myself from the feelings. I was talking to a friend today who was having a rough time. I tried to be supportive to her. Some days are just bad days. I don’t know if today is a bad day for me. I have been too sleepy.
My leg hurts me for some reason. I don’t have a headache right now. It finally went away. It is exhausting to have them tho for so long. It really is debilitating. I hate that I missed Jobes talk the other day. But there is a webinar in Sept on suicidology that he is giving so I hope to attend that. I worry that my headaches will interfere with my reading for my classes. I hope it doesn’t because that will suck.

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