I have gone back to FB, temporarily because I missed seeing my friends. Part of the reason I left is because of this meme.
Had PT and after the dry needling my arm was so sore I couldn’t lift it at all. It is better now but still sore. I am supposed to put heat on but I wanted to eat, write a blog and then go to bed. I’ve already taken my meds for the night plus the meds I didn’t take at 4 because I forgot to take them before leaving the house.
I sent this tweet to my therapist and she responded with we will talk about this next session but I am not sure it is the texting itself or the tweet. We had a discussion yesterday about journaling so I started a word doc so I could share it on zoom. I had wrote a little about how I felt with this tweet in the word doc. I want to feel a connection with her and I know it can’t be 24/7 but I need to know she is there so that is why I text. The more troubling texts I send to another acct she has no access to. It is just in that moment I need to send off whatever my brain is feeling. I don’t need a response.
Today I got word that the covering doc will be my new pcp. This will be the first time in over 20 years that I have a female pcp. I see her next month. I like her. I met her only one time when my shoulder was really bad in 2020. She is the doc that recommended dry needling PT.
I am really tired. I ordered groceries and they came late. They were also delivered without notification. I was not happy. Luckily my niece went downstairs soon after they were delivered and brought them in the house. It is freezing outside so they wouldn’t spoil but still would have been nice if they told me they were there.
In addition to today being the 93rd birthday of the late Dr. Martin Luther King, it is also Betty White’s birthday. People are having a challenge to donate at least $5 to any animal shelter in her name. I donated to my local shelter this morning when I woke up. I had a rough night sleeping.
I had sent a scheduled text to my therapist this morning and she responded. She wants me to journal stuff and then share it. Well the trouble is we meet virtually so how the hell is she going to read something I write. I got creative and decided to put it in a word doc file and then I can share it during the meeting. I got to work on it more tonight and tomorrow. It is only like 300 words right now. I had asked my therapist a question but I guess I am back to silent treatment as she hasn’t answered me. She is such a bitch.
I am so tired because I slept like shit last night. I had pain in my ankle because of the storm and it took forever to quiet down. I think I fell asleep around 1ish. I woke up a few more times but I didn’t get up. I just moved a little bit to get more comfy and fell back to sleep. I didn’t brush my teeth today. I plan on doing it after I take my night meds.
There was a tweet that MGH needs blood so I signed up. The last time I gave blood was a couple of weeks before 9/11. I have no donated since. I don’t know why. I am a hard stick and there was only one phlebotomist that was able to get me. I am going to make sure I hydrate the day before and of so that there is no problems. What sucks is that I will be getting my blood drawn a couple of weeks later for my regular labs for the testosterone. My crit is going to be low but it is ok because I donated blood. I will let my doc know so she doesn’t freak out.
Last night as I couldn’t sleep, I filled my T bag with supplies. I was running low on stuff as it has been a while since I stocked it. I ended up putting diclofenac gel on my rub muscles and as I rubbed it in, omg it was so sore. I also put it on my deltoid muscle and pecs. It took about an hour or two to finally stop the pain so I could sleep. I ordered another tube of it because the ones I have are expired. They are still good just getting old. I also have to request a refill of my pain medication this week. I don’t know who will be filling it. I just hope I don’t have to call again this month. I do what I am supposed to I don’t understand why they have to delay filling it. It causes me so much anxiety.
I am feeling fatigued and weak today. I was up for about a half hour during the night because I had to pee. Then my bladder got me out of bed around 1115. I had a lot of urine in my bladder. It has been the only urge I have had today. I had two big glasses of water and a cup of coffee and I don’t have an urge to go. The left side of my back and rib cage are hurting me today. I put some heat on it and will try a tennis ball to see if that helps loosen some of the muscles.
I am indecisive today. I can’t decide if I want to print out the memoir I am working on or edit it by screen. I might go old school and print it out. Won’t be today though. I am not feeling well enough to edit.
I just had dinner and I am quite full. My brother in law brought up lemon squares so I had that as dessert. It was very good. My mother is making chicken wings with BBQ sauce for her dinner. If I get hungry later, I will have that to snack on.
I tried to nap but my back pain was too much and I couldn’t get comfortable. I had to take some ibuprofen. I am doing more things with my arm, trying to get it used to doing things again. The doc said that the fracture is fully healed but because of my arm pain, not to do any strengthening. I just wish I knew why the muscles around my ribs and shoulder blade hurt so much. I have been putting heat on all day. Soon as my stomach settles for a bit, I plan on making a cup of tea and putting heat on again.
I have a fairly easy week coming up. I just have PT and therapy. I want to get a latte one of these days. I got a lot of Starbucks money for Christmas. I wish I could spend hours there like I used to. Just not worth the risk of catching Covid.