midnightdemons7

brain foggy day

I woke up around 7 to pee and then I took my meds. I didn’t feel like getting up so went back to sleep. I got up around noon-ish. I had a shit ton of messages on my phone. Apparently, a post I posted last night had many likes and reposts as well as comments. I have been receiving notifications on that post all day. After I played my game, I went downstairs to make coffee. I wasn’t really hungry. I tried to wake up but I just felt so foggy and sleepy. After I had my coffee, I laid down with the puppy. I stayed with her for a couple of hours. It was cold in my room so I didn’t want to stay there. The wind was still blowing. Luckily, we didn’t get as much snow as they predicted.

I have been on social media most of the day. I also played my game in between or when I needed to take a break. Lots of terrible shit going on thanks to Felon and his cronies.

I have been wanting to shave my head and shower for most of the day. I only managed to shower, which flared up my back. I hate when that happens. The shower felt good but the bathroom was cold so it was quick.

Yesterday my cousin’s dog died so tomorrow we are going to see my aunt who is a wreck about it. I haven’t seen her in a long time. I hope this brain fog is gone by then.

Doc appt

I woke up a few times before my alarm to pee. I didn’t want to get up when it went off. I slept for an hour and then got up. I had coffee and some donuts. I only had one cup of coffee. Afterwards, I brushed my teeth and then went upstairs to get dressed. Temp was in the 40s so I didn’t dress too warmly. That proved to be a mistake as while I was out the wind picked up and the temp dropped.

The doc appt went well. I do have a uti. He gave me antibiotics and said I could take pyridium. After the appt, I went to Starbucks and got a Dubai mocha again. Then I saw my DMH worker. It was a good conversation. We talked about Honey, my puppy. Also talked about class.

After our meeting, I went to the square to pick up my antibiotics. I caught the bus and went home. It was so cold. I had dinner. I had to use the bathroom again. It was like 5 times while I was out that I had to go. I took some pyridium so I can slow this down.

Because of the wind, my room is freezing. I put on another blanket and some layers. I just want to go to sleep. I am so tired. I walked a lot around the North Station area. Tomorrow I am doing nothing but reading my textbook and cuddling the pup. I am not going out for anything. I have frozen dinners so I don’t have to order food.

My body hurts and I need sleep

My lower back has been bothering me the past few days. I only got a few hours sleep last night. I worked on my homework while I was having coffee. I ordered the Starbucks Dubai chocolate mocha and OMG it is so damn good. I needed espresso to think. I had to go to lab even though I wanted to stay with Honey. I felt bad leaving her alone.

I took a lyft to the station because I rested longer than I should have and I missed the bus. I had to pick up my meds. I got to the lab with like 15 mins to spare. I surprisingly walked ok across campus and back. There were snow flurries when I started lab and then it moved to full snow show. Lab took fucking forever to do. We were doing an experiment and the process just took literally three hours. We did some genetics stuff and next week I need to bring my laptop for the work. I needed it today for her to check off but I didn’t have one so borrowed one of my classmates. I had no idea what I was doing but clicked and did some squares.

I walked in the snow to get to the shuttle bus. I was so tired. The train was delayed and the assholes only used four cars which caused crowding. I hated it. One guy kept hitting me with his bag and I swear I was going to kick him. There was an unhoused person laying down on the seats across from me. He got off on some stop. But no one sat down. I don’t know why. I didn’t want to know. I got off my stop and it was raining. I wanted a sandwich and got it. Then I went to the grocery store to get some corn muffins. My bladder was giving me signals so I didn’t shop. By the time I reached the registers, I really had to go but there were no bathrooms. I ordered a Lyft and then lost control of my bladder. I was completely wet. Thank god it was raining and dark so you couldn’t really see me. I felt so awful. I came home and jumped into the shower where I nearly lost my balance while turning. I was like WTF. I also had to pee again. It hurt so bad. My bladder has been hurting me all evening. I think I got a UTI. I messaged my pcp about this because I hate when I lose control of my bladder. It freaks me out. I think I am going to give a urine sample tomorrow rather than Thurs. This way by Friday, if I have an infection, they can know.

I feel so depressed. I made an appt with my therapist tomorrow. I hope I am up because it is at 11. I set my alarm for 10 so I can have coffee. I was really hoping to sleep in tomorrow. Maybe I can do that Thur. I am so thirsty. I want to get a UMB water bottle. I wanted to stop by the bookstore before leaving but it was snowing pretty hard and the shuttle was there so I decided to leave. I think I will go to bed soon. I was going to read the next chapter but I don’t want to. My brain hurts. My back hurts. I did a lot of walking today. Hopefully my bladder calms the fuck down and I am not going to the bathroom every hour or two.