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Woke up late

My two alarms went off today and I still didn’t want to get up. It was cold and I was nice and cozy in my bed. I kept saying five more minutes and then it was 11. It was late. I got up and made coffee after brushing my teeth. I had a donut and that was it until I came home from class around 5 pm. After my coffee I got dressed and left for the bus but on the way I realized I forgot my phone so had to come back home, missing the bus by seconds. I had to wait a half hour for the next one.

I was too late for my history class so I just hung out at the seating area at the campus center until my second class. The class was so dull. We had to do an assessment thing that I am still not sure what it helps improve. Only thing I learner was that I was a developer in addition to being empathic, intellect, a learner, and something else that I can’t remember right now. There were five things. Then he tells us we have to have a meeting with him or the other instructor for some guidance on how we are doing in class and any questions we have. We also have to do a presentation on something and I forgot what he said the moment I left class. But I had to leave because my bowels were feeling iffy and I didn’t want an accident on the way home.

I almost missed my stop because I snoozed while on the train. I got home and was hungry. I made some soup. I might make a sandwich if we still have bread. I used the last of my money to pay for my meds so until my refund check comes in, I am broke. I still need a box of pasta to make my sausage dish. I so need to go grocery shopping for bare essentials.

Angry

I only got out of bed today because I had to pee. Otherwise, I don’t think I would have gotten up. I had some weird dreams about my mother and being in the hospital for some surgery. I hate these dreams because I always get a headache from them. I don’t know why when I dream about my mother, I get a headache afterwards. So odd.

I had my coffee and my last corn muffin. I wanted to make my pasta dish but I didn’t have my pasta as my niece used it to make her mac and cheese. I had some of it as I was hungry. The only other thing I have to do today is read for my history class and do the homework.

I tried calling the pharmacy which the people are completely incompetent. I am so angry at my pdoc for calling it in to that pharmacy and not the one in the square like I asked. So now I got to pay $25 for a generic medication because not only did he give me the script, he gave me a two month supply so I got to pay double. I am so mad.

Then bitch is complaining that we didn’t do the things she sent a text about. Like I can’t do half of what she asked. I tried to get the towels out of the washer but I couldn’t reach. The washer is so deep and my arms are short. I got a fucking headache again and a toothache. I managed to brush my teeth today. I had to do it as I didn’t do it yesterday. I have been bad with my ADLs. I am back to showering like once a week. I just can’t seem to do it more than that because of my damn foot. Going to be interesting to see how I am after tomorrow’s classes. I feel mad about having to cancel therapy because our schedules are just not in sync right now. I can only see her once a week. I thought I could possibly see her Wed but now that I have to go to campus, it isn’t possible. Ugh. This semester has been rough and with these damn headaches and now the CRPS out of remission, I hope I can keep the three classes.

I need to take a walk around the corner to the pharmacy for my meds. I just want a nap. I was laying down with Honey earlier. She is so sweet. Yesterday she leapt on my chest to lick my ear. She was in a loveable mood. I love her so much.

Saturday Blog 17102026

I had a difficult night trying to sleep last night because I was in pain. My foot flared up and my head was hurting. I couldn’t get comfortable. I was also thirsty but didn’t want to drink because I didn’t want to get up to pee.

I slept most of the afternoon after I got up for some coffee. I thought the coffee would keep me up so I could do my schoolwork but I felt so shitty and it was so cold in the house, I just wanted to be under the covers and warm. I put on a sweatshirt. I still have my flannel PJs on. I love them. They are so soft and comfy. Only thing that sucks is that the waistband is getting lose because I am losing weight around my middle. I keep having to pick up my pants when I stand up.

I finally got all three of my discussions for my gender class done. This is turning into a feminism class and I am disappointed. I thought there would be trans and non binary stuff in there but nope, all about women. And from what I can tell, heterosexual women. The women that have babies and sex with men.

I hope I sleep tonight. I think I will take a trazodone. My head finally feels normal after I got some sleep this afternoon. I had a PB&J for dinner. I didn’t want anything else. Been having them a lot lately. I need more bread. I never made it out today. Tomorrow I need to pick up my new meds. My psychiatrist finally called it in for me. And the pharmacy fucked up because there is no way I am paying $25 for a generic. I hate this pharmacy. The doc called it in to the wrong one. I woke up too late to call them as they close early on weekends.

Tomorrow I just got to do my history homework. I am so glad we are meeting in person again. I just hope the room doesn’t smell musty. I also hope she has graded some of the work we have turned in. I know my first quiz was a bomb. I wouldn’t be surprised if I got a C or a D on it.

Pressures

I didn’t wake up with a headache today or a migraine but I did wake up to pressure in my head. I had three phone calls today that roused me from my sleep. I got up around one for coffee as I had my meeting with my advisor at 130. The meeting lasted all of less than ten minutes. She basically just looked at my classes and said I had 18 credits left. I had miscalculated. I don’t need to take 3 classes for one of my last three semesters, just two classes. YAY! After next semester, I can take whatever the fuck I want as there are no more requirements for me to take. The end is coming.

I then had therapy. It was a mixed session. I had to explain to her what the spoon theory was. She had never heard it before. All I kept thinking about during session was that I had to groom and shower, groom and shower. But I forgot to brush my teeth. I will do that tonight before bed. I am cutting therapy to once a week because I need to attend class on Mondays. But I just got an email from my history professor and our classroom is ready! We are back to in person. I am relieved. It is the same classroom. I now need to go back to the grocery store for some bologna and bread. I need to have lunch in between classes.

I did shower and groom. I felt so much better after my shower. But now my foot is flared up and I have a slight headache. I tried doing my gender studies work but I can’t fucking think of something to say.

I had bought some stuff for a meal to make the other day. I was going to make it today but I don’t have enough energy. I will make it tomorrow. I don’t know how long it will take. Hopefully not that long but I know it will be at least three pans. I actually just checked the video on how to make it and it is much easier than I thought. There is no baking involved so just two pans. The person that made it said it takes 15 mins but we’ll see. It is a spinach sausage cheese pasta dish. It looks really good.

I am going to try and get back to the gender homework and read the next chapter. Hopefully this headache doesn’t intensify.