midnightdemons7

Low energy and mood

Past few days, I have barely left the bed, either my own or my niece’s. I have been sleeping more than usual. I just feel so tired. I don’t feel like myself. I think the pain is making me depressed. I got low appetite. I barely been eating. I slept till 3pm today and all I had was coffee so far today.

My cousin called me on Sunday to get in touch with her. But I haven’t felt up to talking to anyone unless it via text. I’ve been in a mood to not talk with anyone. It’s raining today so I have the beginning of a migraine as thunderstorms have moved in. Game has been postponed so I guess it is going to be raining the rest of the night.

I have therapy tomorrow. I have been in pain with my foot the past few days. I just feel rotten. I miss my mother. Grief has a weird way of showing up when you least expect it. I feel guilty and I haven’t done anything wrong. I am so tired of being fucking tired. I just don’t want to be anymore. It’s so hard getting up and all I want to do it lay down.

Last night I couldn’t sleep. I had slept a few hours but then I woke up and I couldn’t really get back to sleep. I read a new book about tuberculosis. Come to find out, it is a signed book. I thought it would be a scientific book about the disease but it more of a story about its history across mankind. It is interesting. I once wrote a paper about tuberculosis back when I was studying to be a medical assistant. It was interesting as it not only affects the lungs. It can affect anywhere in the body. But it is so hard to get rid of. The length of treatment keeps most people infected and then resistant to the antibiotics.

I got to pick up my meds tomorrow and return my library books. Therapy is in the afternoon so if I leave at 11, I should have time to be back home. My migraine med is ready but I don’t get paid until Friday. I also got to get some more Tylenol as I am almost out. I also need to get magnesium. Hope they are on sale.

Saturday Blog 18072026

I had a hard time sleeping last night. I just couldn’t fall asleep. I was tossing and turning. I couldn’t get the covers on me the right way. I eventually fell asleep only to wake up around three to pee. Then again, I couldn’t sleep. I ended up taking an Ativan around 6 because I had to pee again and then cuddled with the pup. I slept for a little bit. I knew my med alarm was going off. My sister came down and I decided to go up to take my meds. It was around 1030. I was surprised the alarm was still going off as it was set for 9.

I snoozed some more and then got up around 1. I had a corn muffin and coffee. The puppy went outside. It was so humid out. Luckily there were no storms as they predicted. It did rain. Game was delayed. I wanted to shower today as I was sweating and I stink but I still haven’t done it. I don’t really know what to wear and most of my summer clothes are in the hamper. I need to wash clothes. I don’t have the energy for it. I haven’t brushed my teeth yet. I also need to trim my goatee. I just feel so exhausted. My allergies are killing me today and the post nasal drip is causing gagging at times.

Earlier today, the pup was sorting herself and landed on my bad foot. I was in immediate pain. The pain has gotten worse since. My bowels had just barely gotten back to “normal” and now I need to take my pain meds which is going to fuck them up again. Sox are losing. I am ready to turn off the game that I am listening to so I can read before bed. I am getting tired. I am trying to stay awake. Just hope I don’t get overtired.