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Don’t get me wrong

I had a difficult time sleeping most of the night because of pain. My ankle flared up soon after I finished my blog last night. The pain was really bad. I ended up taking a pain med and some more allegra for my allergies. That helped some.

I talked with my DMH worker today. I don’t know why I do. She annoys me. I realized while talking to her about classes for next semester, I hadn’t yet registered for classes. We talked about how my current classes were going and she said that I was “doing well” as I haven’t been in the hospital. She also said I was managing well as I had three classes. I don’t know, it just seemed like she was downplaying my depression, like it wasn’t serious or anything.

After talking with her, I took a nap for a few hours. I didn’t get up till around 6pm. I had something to eat and also had an ensure as I haven’t eaten much today. I had the leftover stuffing from yesterday and some cranberry sauce. It was all I wanted. I will make a ham sandwich tomorrow. I am still mad I got ham instead of turkey breast.

I tried registering for classes and my upper level psych class was full. Fuck. I had to pick another class. I chose an introduction to creative writing. It will meet before my history class on Tues. So now I will be on campus just twice a week instead of four times a week. But it will be long as I have two classes back to back. It took me a while to pick my class because it was mostly early morning times and I wasn’t going to pick a 9am class. There wouldn’t be a chance I would show up. I chose an 11am time so that might work.

Because I was still in pain, I didn’t go out today. I might go out tomorrow as I need to get more tissues. I am down to half a box. I go through so much because of my sneezing attacks. I played with Honey today. She was loveable. She kept licking my face and got my glasses. I love her new collar she has but she hasn’t been able to pose for me yet. It has been a while since I last took a pic of her.

My email is down. I guess there has been an outage on outlook for most of the day. Hopefully it is back up tomorrow.

Sneezing like crazy today

Since I got up this morning, I have been sneezing. I don’t know why. I took my meds early, before I went downstairs for coffee. I didn’t sleep well. I think the afternoon nap that I had yesterday interfered with my night sleeping. I slept on and off but I think I was up for most of the night as I kept on tossing and turning. I just couldn’t get comfortable and my legs were hurting. If I lay on my right side, my back started to hurt. I was getting so frustrated. I peed around 330 so decided to take an Ativan and that helped me sleep for a little bit.

Therapy went ok. I told her our anniversary was next week and she said it has been a year she has been with the organization as a whole as she started in Oct. I told her this was a difficult week for me as it is my godparents birthdays over the next couple of days. Today is my godmother’s birthday. I am always thinking of her. She meant so much to me growing up. I remember I would call her nearly every Sunday if we didn’t go down to see her. Then I just called her when she moved to the next town over. It was a nice house. I spent a week there one summer. It was fun. I loved being away from home. My sisters got homesick and came home early.

I took a shower and my legs really hate me now. I was getting cramps in my calves and feet this morning. I went to the grocery store to get some things. I wanted to make a Thanksgiving sandwich but the jerks at the deli counter gave me ham instead of turkey. I didn’t notice it until I was at home. I got salami so I can have a sandwich on Monday.

I got to do my history homework. I have been trying to do it the past hour or so and keep procrastinating. Tomorrow I see my DMH worker. I plan on getting Starbucks. I still have some Starbucks money on my card. I wish there was a store near me that I can go to without taking a million buses to. Or a train and a bus. I got a history quiz coming up next week. I got to go over my notes. There were two classes I missed. I hope it doesn’t affect me negatively.