midnightdemons7

Early day makes you tired

I woke up around 830am to empty my stupid bladder. I then checked to see if my check came in. It did so I did a little shopping and ordered breakfast with a coffee. I paid my cell bill and signed up for autopay. For some reason, even though my plan is like $85, I am being charged $105. With autopay, I save $5. Pollen count is high today so I have been sneezing my head off. I tried to have a second cup of coffee but I couldn’t finish it. For some reason, I can never drink a second cup. Probably because of the weight loss drug. I blame all my eating issues on it.

I have decided not to get an eye exam this year as I don’t think I need a new prescription. I wish I knew where my prescription was so I could get a new pair of glasses. I like my current one but I would like to change it to something else. For some reason my phone created a video of my selfies so I saw different pairs of glasses on me from over the years. I liked the black frame ones. Those were cool. I have no idea where they are though to get my current prescription in them. But then again, I have no idea where my current prescription is either.

Therapy was about my bitch sister and how she eats my food, particularly my ice cream. I told her how I was struggling to get groceries as I have not been able to for the last maybe three months. I have been swamped with bills and just have done little shopping for absolute necessary things like my half and half and stuff to eat for a week or so. For a few days I lived off peanut butter and jelly sandwiches because I didn’t have anything else to eat. I haven’t bought burgers because I haven’t gone to that particular grocery store in a while. I just been going to the cheaper grocery store and ignore the meat section. I should make a casserole again. That will last me a few days of meals. I told her my bitch sister doesn’t care because she criticizes what I buy. My other sister also criticizes what I buy but understands my money is limited. Bitch doesn’t understand that.

Before therapy, I shaved and trimmed my goatee. I love the feel of my head when it is smooth. I haven’t brushed my teeth yet because while I was shaving, I got a cramp in my arm. I took the puppy for a walk around the block and my back cramped up on me and for some reason, it has continued. I need to take Ativan tonight. Maybe a pain med too as my ankle is hurting now. Been hurting the last few days. I have been ignoring it, pretending it doesn’t hurt, which is hard to do some days. I have to get up early tomorrow for the ultrasound. I need to be fasting. I will need to take my meds with a minimal amount of fluid. I got brain fog right now and it was so hard to do the simple math of when I needed to start the fast. I need sleep.

Fuck it Sunday

I had some weird dreams and woke up kind of perturbed. I wanted coffee. I had a dark roast which isn’t my usual coffee that I have. I don’t know if it was that or the senna that upset my stomach, but damn, I was in some serious pain afterwards. I didn’t want to do a fucking thing today. I didn’t shave. I had my cousin come over and take care of the forest at the back of my neck.

I did my meds. I got rid of the recycle that was on my bed and started taking things slowly off my bed. I want to change my sheets this week. I really don’t like them because they are white and everything shows up on them. It’s driving me crazy. I want my solid color back.

It’s been a cloudy day with some rain this afternoon. It stopped but it remained cloudy. My brother in law made some peppers and steak so I had some. It was good. I took some zucchinis so I can make my zucchini bread. I just need to find the recipe. I don’t know what my sister did with my recipes. I tried to find it on my phone and it wasn’t there. There are like a million recipes and I don’t remember where I got it from. It was a good one because the bread was moist and tasted really chocolatey.

Other than therapy, I have one appt this week. It’s for an ultrasound. I got to leave in the morning and it is a six hour fast. I am going to bring a sub with me so I can eat it after the test. Maybe I will get an iced tea and chips too. They have a little café shoppe in the lobby. Hopefully I will have some money left in my check when I get it tomorrow.

It’s kind of humid today despite it raining. I have my AC off because I was cold. It just felt cold out. Sox won. I am glad the game was early. Now I can read tonight. There are three weeks till the semester starts. I am going to start the gender book next week. It is an online class. I just hope it isn’t intense. I am hoping for an easy semester. I wish I had some ice cream.