midnightdemons7

Midterm and other stuff

I woke up before my alarm but didn’t get out of bed. I didn’t know what time it was. I just didn’t want to get up. I had to though because I wanted to see my professor during her office hours after therapy. I got up when the alarm went off. I regretted having a 9am appt.

Therapy went ok. We talked about the hurdles I have been through the past few weeks. She wanted me to do something kind to myself. I told her if I got a good grade in my history class I will get a hot towel shave. She said I should get one anyway. We talked about my class and how anxious I was today because of the midterm. I still had some time to do some extra studying. I figure I would do that once I got to campus.

After therapy, I gave up on seeing the professor as the bus was coming now and I still hadn’t brushed my teeth yet much less get dressed. I had coffee and a corn muffin. I love Market Basket’s corn muffins. They are so yummy. I wanted to go to Starbucks but the bus gods were against me. I brushed my teeth and got dressed and then left to wait for the bus.

I got to campus but it was too late to see the professor. I printed out a couple of things for class and then studied. Then came time for the midterm. I fucked up the chronology of events. I know I didn’t get them in the correct order. I picked three IDs to write about and then bullshitted through the essay and I am not even sure it made sense. I still had like 40 mins to spare but just turned it in as I was cooked. I didn’t cite my last quote and I regret that now. I hope I am not taken down too much for that. Before I left campus, I bought a drink at the Dunkin as a treat. It was pretty good. I don’t know if it had caffeine in it but I liked it.

There were delays getting to my stop on the train. I had to pick up my meds at the pharmacy before I could go home, though. I got home and immediately played with Honey who was a snuggle bug. I love her so much. I had a toothache and needed ibuprofen but I needed to eat something first. I wanted pupusas so I got them. They were good but omg did they hurt to chew them. I think I need to get my teeth extracted sooner rather than later. I have been putting it off for a number of years now but I think my luck has run out. I hate this. I am scared. I got to go to the place that accepts my insurance. Hopefully I won’t have to pay too much for them to yank my teeth out.

I got in touch with the admin of the psychology dept. I requested an interview with her and set it up for Friday morning. I have to do this for my networking class. A few minutes after I sent the email, my bowels let loose and I shit myself. I was not happy. I went to the bathroom to change and clean up. I had all loose stool. I didn’t take magnesium last night because I didn’t want this to happen but looks like it happened anyway. I am so pissed off this keeps happening. This is because of the new antidepressant. I just ordered some fiber pills. My pcp said it might help soak up the water a bit. We’ll see.

Another day another headache

I woke up fine. I did my coffee routine. I pet Honey who was whining after my nephew even though her parents were home. But I still got a headache in the afternoon. I feel like crap and I need to re-read all the annotations we have done so far. I started with the ones the professor sent us in an email. I cannot study off a laptop. I don’t know why. I need it in my hands. I will print it off tomorrow when I am on campus.

I had a chicken sandwich for lunch. I bought rolls for the chicken patties I had in the freezer. I wanted pumpkin pie but they didn’t have it. No matter what kind of pumpkin pie I wanted they were sold out. I will have to get it at another store.

Today marks 22 years since the Sox won their World Series, breaking the 86 yr old curse. I cried when I seen the video again. It always tears me up watching them celebrate. I remember watching it on tv and looking at my tv stunned for a few minutes before I was able to celebrate. It was such a joyous moment.

I am tired but I need to read.

Coffee at midnight

I have been in a sleep haze the past couple of days because I did not sleep Friday night. I slept most of the day yesterday because I was so tired. I didn’t do anything I wanted to do. I didn’t do much today either. I filled my med boxes for the week and managed to make something to eat. I didn’t eat yesterday. I just had ensure.

I had coffee today but it didn’t wake me up. I ended up taking a three hour nap. I need to do schoolwork. I hate these stupid discussions and one is really misogynistic that I don’t want to do it. I also have to study for my history midterm. I have to reread the annotations to refresh my memory. I don’t want to do any of it. I just want to sleep.

I feel so blah. I need to shower and brush my teeth. I will do that before bed tonight. I made a fried egg sandwich. I had been craving one the last few days. Thankfully, the back spasms have gone away. I don’t know if the muscle relaxant was causing me to feel dizzy and nauseous while I was so sleep deprived. It was awful because all I could do was lay down. I want pancakes. I have to make them from scratch, which is fine because I think they taste better than the mix. I will probably make them on Tues when I have more time in the day.