midnightdemons7

Saturday Blog 12092026

I got up around 10. I had woken up three time to pee and finally gave up going back to sleep. I had taken my meds around 6 when I first woke up. I had some coffee and a pop tart. I really didn’t want coffee but I drank it anyway. I don’t know why I am losing interest in coffee. Some days I have to have it, others I can care less.

I shaved after. My goatee was thick. I checked to see when the last time I trimmed it. It wasn’t even two weeks yet. I thought about trimming it but didn’t feel like it. I used the new shave gel to see if I liked it. It doesn’t have a good scent but it was decent. It got the job done. I found my Gillette aftershave so I put it on my face and under my chin. It smells so good.

I then got ready to go to the market. I decided because my headphones fell out of my pocket to go to the meat market rather than the grocery store. I bought a steak and some burgers. I will make the steak tonight maybe with some mashed potatoes. I want to grill it. I know I am going to fuck it up. I most likely will be too rare.

Now I got to do school work. I started reading the chapter last night but I couldn’t finish it. I still got to do the quiz. I have no idea what my history homework is. I haven’t looked at it.

I am tired and I was only out for about an hour. I was able to time the bus right. I am missing my sister and my niece. They are in Italy right now. They don’t come home until next week. I am feeling really sad. I hope I can read all that I need to. I am not going to pay attention too much to the Sox game. I feel they are just going to lose today and tomorrow. They aren’t playing well at all lately. Lost their last five games against last place teams.

Much needed sleep

I got up a few times during the night to pee but for the most part I slept and didn’t get up till around 1ish. I took my meds around 9 but I didn’t take the weight loss drug until I got up. I feel depressed today so I didn’t do much. I had something to eat but didn’t want coffee. I had a soda instead with my chicken sandwich. I wanted to shave but just couldn’t do it.

I made a call to the pharmacy as the other day I was wheezing and didn’t know where my albuterol was. The pharmacy said there was a problem with my insurance. This is the second time I have had a problem. I got a message to my doc and apparently they were going to send it to the other pharmacy but forgot or something. They are working on it. I hope I don’t need it before then.

I tried cuddling with Honey but she just wanted to stay on her dog bed. I made an iced coffee around 5pm. I wanted something with caffeine as I need to read today. I did nothing yesterday but recover from all the walking I did on Wed. I did submit a thing on the gender. I was the first to do so. Someone else submitted last night and I read what they wrote. It made me angry as they thing gender is biological. I didn’t respond to the post. I didn’t know what to say other than to call them an idiot. Ugh.

I ate a lot when I got up. I had my sandwich, some chips, and then some ice cream. The ice cream was icy and didn’t taste very good. I think it defrosted and then got refrozen. I ate half of it. I now have a stomachache.

I never went out to get my steak. I will try tomorrow. I might get burgers too if they have them. I have like $24 in food stamps. I got to save at least $7 for half and half. I have a full container right now but I will be needing a new one in a week or so, especially as my sister uses it too.

So far in my two classes, I don’t have papers to write. Score!! I do have a lot to read tho. That sucks. I have to re-read the introductory chapter in my gender book because I don’t remember what it was about. I also have a syllabus quiz to take for it. I had my bitch sister print it out for me so I could take it. There are only six questions so shouldn’t be too hard.

Yesterday was first day of class

I was in pain before I got to campus yesterday. I had a little sciatica in my leg. I didn’t have to walk far to get to where I was going on campus. With a half hour left in class, the fire alarms went off and we had to evacuate the building. The professor is awesome and the class is going to be very interesting. She is writing a book on Shay’s rebellion that I will be curious to read when it comes out.

I had to pick up my packet for class and then I got lost in the building trying to get out. I didn’t go in the way I went out but I made it. I had to do stairs though, which aggravated my leg. I also had to go to the campus store to buy a binder for the packet. My backpack was heavier than when it started.

I woke up at 5am yesterday and didn’t go to sleep till around 230am today. I got about 3 hours of sleep. I feel so damn tired. I had to take two pain meds last night and I took all I the meds I could take for nerve pain and spasms. I still have the sciatic pain. I have been eating all day. I had buffalo chicken dip, cheese and crackers, and a bowl of cereal. I hope I don’t get heartburn because I have been getting that a lot lately. I am out of Mylanta so this sucks. I have to get it when I get paid next as I am broke again.

I had therapy today. It went well. I told her about the issues I have been having and about my suicidal states. She suggested peer to peer so I am going to look into it. I tried to take a nap afterwards but couldn’t sleep. I am so tired. I hope I sleep tonight. Tomorrow I need to go to the grocery store because I want a steak and it is on sale. I got the sale papers yesterday. I haven’t had steak in so long. I want to BBQ it. I have to shave and shower tomorrow. I am going to try and do it every two days. Of course, it will depend on my energy levels.