midnightdemons7

Day after New Years

I went to bed around 10 and then woke up around 430 because I had to pee. I didn’t want to get up but did an hour later. I was able to sleep a little more and dream weird shit. I don’t know why I keep dreaming I am in a psych hospital. I dreamt about my friend who passed away like two years ago, maybe three now. I told him that I love him and was giving him a huge hug.

I got up around noon. My cousin was to take me grocery shopping so I could get some deli meat but he canceled on me. I had two cups of coffee. I ordered McDs for lunch because I wanted a burger. It came cold. I wasn’t happy about that. I plan on having a chicken pot pie for dinner.

My niece texted me this morning about leaving the door open for her ex. I was all excited about seeing the puppy as he has her. But he never showed and now my niece doesn’t think he is coming. I am sad. I don’t know when I will see my pup again.

I watched episode 4 of Taylor’s docuseries last night. It was awesome seeing Sabrina Carpenter and Travis. I really like how Travis went from all butthurt because Taylor wouldn’t talk to him when he went to one of her shows for voice rest and is now her fiancé. It’s a love story alright.

I ordered my groceries to be delivered tomorrow. They didn’t have my usual time available probably because I ordered them after 1pm. I didn’t get deli meat because you can only order a half a pound and I want a quarter of a pound. I also can’t get the roast beef that I want because it isn’t available. Better to just go to the store.

I don’t think the dose I am on for the weight loss drug is effective anymore. I seem to be gaining weight instead of losing it. I am eating less (minus today’s food) so I don’t understand it. My stomach is hurting me right now. I just took some Mylanta. I took the drug today and for the first time, I felt the needle when I injected. I know the stomachache is because of the drug as it is the same type of pain I always get for a few days after taking it.

I don’t know if it is because it is dry in my room or I am getting a cold, but my nose has been stuffy all day. It is annoying me. I took some flonase so hopefully it goes away. My sister sprayed something in the kitchen and I was sneezing my head off. I hate it when she does that. But I scared her good today. I was in the bathroom and she opened the door, not expecting me to be there. Haha.

New Year’s Day 2026

I somehow got put on a group text with my aunt’s family and my phone has been blowing up since yesterday afternoon with everyone of the 15 people saying the same thing. Then it started again at midnight and I went nuts. I shut my damn phone off. This was my mother’s side of the family. Then today I get my father’s side, which is another group text. But I didn’t mind it because I got to see my new cousin that was born at 1156pm. Just 4 minutes shy of being a New Year’s baby.

I have been tired most of the day. I took a trazodone last night so I slept until 840 I think but couldn’t go back to sleep. I ended up getting up around 11 because I needed coffee. My sister took me grocery shopping so I have food until I get my grocery order delivered on Sat. I am down to my last two bottle of Powerade and I am trying to make them last. I was wicked thirsty when I got up so I drank like half the bottle. I got eggs so I can make breakfast tomorrow. I was going to make an egg today but my sister used them to make cookies. I ended up having pancakes. I got a few cans of my favorite soup. I forgot to see if they had corn chowder so I will be getting it on my grocery order.

I came home a sweaty mess. It was so hot in the grocery store despite it being wicked cold outside. My tshirt was soaked. I need to shower tonight. I snoozed a little with the puppy after my sister had gone downstairs. She likes me better than her as she snuggled with me. She also pooped outside on the porch which I was happy about. There was snow on the porch so I was sure she would even do anything outside other than sniff around. She has a habit of eating her poop so after she went, I brought her inside.

I bought a frozen pizza and that is what I am having for dinner. I also got a chicken pot pie. That will be lunch tomorrow. I forgot to get turkey breast. I wanted to get roast beef but I didn’t have enough money on me. I used my cash last night for dinner so didn’t have extra.

I am so tired. I watched Taylor’s docuseries episode 3. I will watch episode 4 tonight. I still need to hang her calendar up.

3 cups of coffee kind of day

I woke up early.  I have no idea what time because I didn’t dare look at the time. I had to pee. Then my sister did and I was kind of up by then with no hope of falling back to sleep. I got up when everyone left for work. I had my first cup of coffee and then another. I make some boiled eggs. I gave one to the puppy. She loved it.

I then went up to my room and played my game for a bit debating on getting my bloodwork done. It was wicked cold out so I knew I would freeze waiting for the bus. Instead I got out of breath and my back flared up. I need to go out more. I came home by cab because I didn’t feel like taking the T home. I also had to pee and had too many layers to use a public restroom.

I am so tired. I had some pancakes for lunch. My family is going to a new restaurant tonight. Looking at the menu, I already know what I want. I just hope the BLT comes with fries. I didn’t check that. I really would rather be home reading and snoring into the new year. The time between Christmas and New Years day sucks. It’s like a dead end period or something. I am going to take a nap before my sisters get home from work. I still have my jeans on because I am too lazy to change. There is a chance if I change, I might not change again.

I need to go food shopping. I am down to the bare essentials. I got tuna and mac and cheese mix left. I want soup. Also want cookies. I have become a cookie monster again because of all the cookies I have been exposed to. My niece made these awesome protein oatmeal chocolate chip cookies and they were so yummy. I called them healthy because they had protein in them.

Tomorrow I am just going to stay in bed. But I got to go to the grocery store, fuck. That screws up that plan. I am trying not to crash but I think I might. I will check to see if my lab results are back in an hour or so. I wanted to take the puppy for a walk but she hid under the bed when I grabbed the leash. She is so weird.