Category: depression

Saturday Blog 25042026

I did nothing but sleep today. I woke up in the middle of the night. I don’t remember if I had to pee or if I just woke up. I heard my sister get up. It was like 3am. She was going to Florida for the next couple of days. I guess she had to clean the kitchen before she left because things were away when I got up around noon. I had my coffee but didn’t eat anything. I wasn’t hungry. I just felt tired. I went to lay with Honey and nearly fell asleep. I went up to my room and took a nap. I had some weird dreams that gave me a headache, which didn’t help feeling tired.

My brother in law made dinner and it was salty as hell. He overuses salt in everything he makes. I drank a lot of water.

Sox won and despite this, they went on a firing spree after the game. Luckily, my husband didn’t get canned. He was reassigned, to what, I don’t know yet. They have been playing so crappy lately but to fire half the staff in the middle of a series sucks.

I need to read my articles that I downloaded for my paper. I read one of them last night and learned that major depressive disorder and amyloid beta are related. The exact mechanism isn’t understood but there is a correlation. I guess this is why I feel slow sometimes, like my brain is just having trouble firing neurons. There wasn’t a lot written about it, though. I need to do more research on it. I am hoping to read at least one more article tonight and then get started on the paper tomorrow. I still haven’t thought about my question to propose.

I registered for a one credit course. It is in the school of counseling psychology. Something to do with work/life balance. It is about 50 mins on a Monday. I also have class on Mon so I will be on campus. I need to buy snacks to take with me. I just keep forgetting to buy them. I will have my surgery in a month. The only trouble I foresee is moving the TV we have that is blocking the stairs so the dog doesn’t come upstairs. Sometimes she likes to do her business up there so we need to block it off. I might have trouble moving it. It is not heavy but the motion to move it might cause me pain. I need to tell the surgeon that I want to stay on the pain med I am taking now and not be on another one during recovery. The pharmacy might give me trouble if I am on two different opioids. I am also going to tell my pcp as well so she is on board with it. Besides, it works better for me than something else.

High pollen count makes for a sneezing day

I woke up around 6 to pee. My bitchy sister said that I should “hurry up because she has to get ready”. I felt like taking my time and man, my pee never came out as slow as it did. I seemed to pee forever. I wish I took a stinkiest shit but I didn’t have to go. I went back to my room and took my morning meds. Then went back to sleep. I set my alarm for 11. 11 came and I didn’t want to get out of bed. I stayed in bed for a bit until I had messages come in so decided to get up. I wasn’t that interested in having coffee but decided to make a cup anyway. I had a biscuit with it. I didn’t feel like making something to eat. I wasn’t that hungry.

I thought about walking to the station. I left my house and was half way down the street when I realized I forgot my money for my meds. I had to go back to the house. This made me tired so I didn’t walk to the station. I waited for the bus opposite the one I usually take because it is closer to my pcp’s office. Pollen count was high and I could smell the trees in my neighborhood. I did ok until I got to my stop and then I had a sneeze attack. I was sneezing the rest of the afternoon.

My doc thinks I have venous insufficiency in my leg that is causing the swelling. She is going to rule out a clot by ultrasound. She asked when my last T dose was and seeing as it was last week, decided to test for it. I didn’t mind. On the way to the station, I stopped at Starbucks and got a Dubai chocolate mocha. It’s my new favorite drink. I should have got a grande as a venti was too much but I ended up finishing it on the way home. I went to the pharmacy to pick up my meds. I have my migraine med that I need to take Sunday.

I came home and had the leftover Chinese food from last night. We ordered Kung Pao and it was so good, even better reheated. After I ate, I had another sneeze attack that just continued even after I went to my room so I took a Benadryl. I did some research for my paper. I found six articles. I think that will be enough to bring me to 600 words.

I am listening to the Sox game. We are leading by a run right now and the rookie started just struck out the Skankees with bases loaded. Sox lead right now in the 5^th 2-1. I keep sneezing so I am going to stop here as my eyes are tearing pretty bad.

Earth Day 2026

I got up like three times before 8am to pee and I was not happy. I slept until 930 and then got up for my therapy appt. I didn’t make coffee because I was in such a mood. I also didn’t want to go downstairs because my niece’s ex brought his dog so there were two dogs to deal with. I didn’t feel like dealing. Therapy went ok. We talked about my paper and she liked how I gave a therapist’s perspective in it. We also talked about some guidelines around trauma talking. We didn’t get into it because we spent so much time talking about the article I sent her.

I had coffee and met the dogs after. My sister called and asked if I wanted coffee so after I made my cup, I went downstairs. I made a bagel as it was going to be some time before dinner. Today was my niece’s birthday and we were taking her to a Chinese food place to celebrate. She had her first alcoholic drink today. Then I think they went to the casino for some shots. They got a room so they wouldn’t have to drive back home. The casino is in the next town over so it is not far from where we live. I didn’t want to go so I went home with my brother in law who told me about his family and how dysfunctional they were. I already knew.

I have to write a 600 word paper on a science topic for lab due next week. I think I will write about Alzheimer’s. It runs on both sides of my family. I just have to look up some articles and see what kind of paper I need to write. It’s something like pick a topic and then ask a question about your topic, which is kind of weird.

I managed to shave, shower, and brush my teeth today. And then when I got into clean clothes, I leaked so had to change my underwear. I am seeing uro again to find out why I am leaking. Sometimes I am aware and sometimes I am not. Today I was not aware but I felt wet. The dogs are back. I love when they howl at each other. They are so cute. I love them.