meet in the middle

Meet in the middle

I had a very dream filled night and a few headaches. I was up for a couple of hours and finished the chapter in my textbook. I wanted to read today but I’ve been a space cadet. I had an appointment with my psychiatrist. We talked about sleep and how the dreams lead to headaches. He is going to put me on a high dose of trazodone. I will be stopping the mirtazapine. Maybe now I can lose the weight I have gained from it. I haven’t weighed myself in more than a month. I did take my blood pressure and it is still on the high side but better.

After my appointment, I made lunch and actually had energy to clean up afterwards. I made a hot cocoa after I was finished. I had a coffee with lunch. I made a pasta chicken alfredo from Birdseye. It was good. I then brushed my teeth and shaved my head. I didn’t post any selfies today because I wasn’t in the mood. I have been off the new social media site Bluesky because it is filled with trash from Trump. I know many Americans are saying never again to the Holocaust but why they are giving him a go is beyond me. I fear that there will be a civil war of some sort with him. It hasn’t helped my mood so I just have been off the site.

I managed another 200 or so words in my ending. I am up to 728 words. I will try and work on it again tomorrow. I have been in a dark place and been listening to 90s country which has helped my mood with good songs, many of which I haven’t heard in a really long time.

I have been trying to drink more water but it is a challenge. I never realized how much I relied on Gatorade and Powerade for my hydration. I don’t know why I didn’t get some this month. I just didn’t have the $200 for the order. I end up putting things in the cart and it is hard to get them out sometimes. My half and half and Gatorade/Powerade is my main items I buy every month. I am trying to switch to water but it is hard. Some times I can drink without a problem and then others I have to be thirsty to gulp some down.