Feel like shit today
I woke up in the middle of the night again to pee and it took a while to get back to sleep. Then I woke up a few hours later to pee again. It was around 730 so I took my meds and went back to sleep. I don’t know what happened but when my med alarm went off at 10, I felt like absolute shit and had a bad hangover. I got my migraine med and brought it up to my room to bring it to room temp before injecting it. My sister called me around noon and I reluctantly got up. I wasn’t going to go to class. It was too late and I wasn’t in the mood to “fly”. I had some coffee and I wanted McD’s.
I responded to my therapist’s question but haven’t had a response yet. I struggled to stay awake for most of the day and then around 3 I gave up. I rested until around 1830. I had some ice cream and now my teeth hurt from the cold. I got a cold sore on my lip that hurts. I finally got some medicine for it. It is helping to ease the pain. It sucks I can’t drink while the medicine is on because I tend to wipe it off. I have been feeling so off today. The nap helped. I woke up to it pouring out. There was some thunderstorms in the area but I didn’t hear it.
Sox lost today. It was a day game so I was expecting it. I am glad they played when they did or they might have had a rain postponement. Now they will be in Minnesota and it will be late game times. I have my night free so I think I am going to re-read chapter 10. I wanted to do it this afternoon but I took a nap instead. I managed a shave and a shower today. I think that is why I needed a nap afterwards. I was hoping the shower would get rid of the shittiness but it didn’t. I had fleeting thoughts of suicidality today. I wanted to text my therapist but thought better of it.
I haven’t quite decided how I will get to my appointment tomorrow. I can take a cab or I can take the T and walk there. I will decide tomorrow. Sucks because either way, I can’t have Starbucks.
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