Trying not to nap
I slept till about 8am this morning. I had woken up to pee. I had some weird dreams about my pcp. I took my meds and rested till about 11 and then got up. I had some coffee. My cousin called and asked if we were still on for grocery shopping. I really didn’t need anything but turkey breast and just decided to go. $50 later, I came home. I am tired now. I was tired after my second cup of coffee. I have been trying to avoid a nap.
I came home and put the things away. Then I made some burgers. I still had my jack pepper cheese so I put them on the burgers. It was nice. I had bought a green tea but didn’t realize it didn’t have sugar in it. It was lousy. I drank like half of it then tossed it. My cousin bought me a coffee at Dunkins and it was like drinking dishsoap. I tossed it too.
I sent a message to my psychiatrist about whether I could get a referral to another therapist or if I had to leave where I get my care to see another therapist. He responded with “we’ll talk at our next appointment” and I need to see what my goals are. Fuck. I don’t know what I want out of therapy anymore. I see the DMH worker tomorrow. I just don’t know what I want to work on.
I need to shower today. And shave. I plan on doing this in an hour. Today was my migraine shot day. I have been migraine free (knock on wood) for almost a month. I haven’t had to take my PRN meds in weeks. I need to bring my sharps containers to the police station so they can be disposed of. I sort of know where to go but it has been a long while since I last went to the area. I can take the bus there, which is easier than taking the new green line. I do need to take the green line tomorrow when I go see the DMH worker.
My sinuses are kicking my ass today and the pollen count isn’t high at all as we had rain this morning. It has cooled off considerably. I like the temps in the 50s. It isn’t exactly short weather but I don’t care, I am cool. I was really suffering with the temps being close to 80 in my room even though outside was in the 70s. That is uncomfortable for me. I hate the heat. I keep meaning to clear the AC area but I just have no fucking energy. Just shopping took all I had. I was quick but my cousin took forever. He was my ride so I had to wait. I had nothing to do so didn’t mind.
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