Frustrating day
I woke up earlier than I wanted to. I was up when my sister got up, which can be a bad thing some days. I took my meds and then had coffee. My sister didn’t leave for work until around 930. I was working on my second cup by then. I checked the amazon package that was delivered and it was my biscuits. I was already halfway done with my second cup so I didn’t have them. I wanted them though. I figure I would have them with my next cup.
I went upstairs and logged on my laptop. It wouldn’t connect to the internet. It kept bringing up a page but wouldn’t connect. I restarted and still had the same problem so I called. Apparently, my account was overdue and shut me off. Rude. I just sent them a payment yesterday but it hasn’t been recorded yet. They restored my services. They asked when I would be able to pay the next bill and I said the 24th. I only wanted to see if I had any new sales on my book so I logged on with my hotspot on my laptop as it was going to take an hour for my services to be restored. I tried two different apps to have my account but because I am not FIOS or a Verizon wireless customer, I can’t log in with my account. Fucking fuck. So I created an account for nothing.
I made lunch as I was hungry. I didn’t have breakfast. I ordered my groceries and it was still early enough to have them delivered same day. They will be coming in about an hour from now. I figure I try and blog before it arrives. I made a bacon sandwich and I was topless. I didn’t think about this until the pan started splattering. OOPS. Luckily, it was just my arms that got splatter. The sandwich was good but I really wanted turkey bacon. I went to two stores and they didn’t have it yesterday. So I was stuck with regular bacon. It was still good but messy. It is hot in my kitchen so I don’t know if I will have bacon fat congealed or not. I am trying to save my energy for going up and down the stairs when my delivery comes. I was really tired after I cooked. I had to rest for a few. I kept on getting notifications on my phone but they weren’t from Peapod. I had difficulty with that app too. It wouldn’t give me the order status after it sent me the pdf of my order. I had no idea what time my delivery would be expected within the window I picked. It didn’t load until after 3pm. I was annoyed because I had to change my password, again. Then, because I had changed the password and then logged in with my phone browser, it wouldn’t let me connect with the app because I was “already logged in on another device”. UGH.
Sox game last night got suspended because of the weather. I thought they would play today but they aren’t. I keep thinking today is the 26th and it isn’t. It is AUG 26th when the game will resume. I was confused. I also was disappointed there is no game today. I texted my DMH worker about my mood and sent a message to my psychiatrist. The DMH worker told me to contact some service if I need to connect with someone over the weekend. It’s the same service as the therapy place gave me. I am not in crisis but I just feel so low and I hope I am not going downhill. I always worry when things are ok for too long. My mood has been dipping around 530pm every night for at least two weeks. Yesterday it was so hard to write and read.
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