another sleepless night

Another sleepless night

I had a few hours sleep and then I sort of woke up and was snoozing. I had some strange dream with my mother and people I have been watching on facebook. Then I heard a cat scream really loud and it woke me up. This was around 3am and I have been up since. I have been playing my game. It’s been fun.

I had a hard day yesterday. The National Park Service took down all mention of trans history on their website. I am so upset. My friend isn’t understanding what this means and she thinks I can stop it. It is out of my hands at the moment. I don’t even know how to get it back on the website.

I have an earache and my bladder has been cramping the past few days. I don’t know why. I am congested so I might have fluid in my ear. My urine has been on and off being cloudy. I don’t have any other symptoms. I do feel run down but it could be the depression making me feel this way.

I have a meeting with my DMH worker today. I haven’t decided if I want to meet in person or have a phone call. My niece just gave me pics of her wedding and I want to share them with her so I might go in person. It is coming on a year that I have known her. She has been such a good support for me.

I didn’t go to class yesterday. I just couldn’t get out of bed. It was cold and rainy so I didn’t want to leave the house. It was also windy so I know it would be bitter cold. My room was cold most of the day because of the wind. I did my Italian. I haven’t read the English book yet. It is just so dull. I read the notes the professor put up and I am like, I am not getting those vibes from this book. I haven’t really analyzed it too much yet. The extra credit for this class is going to be tough because you need to write notes and having it be substantial and a page or more long. It’s going to be tough.

I need to shave and shower today. I am letting my hair grow a little longer before I cut it off again. It just got too long to shave and I didn’t feel like dealing with it. I can’t make up my mind whether I like it buzz short or shaved. I go back and forth.

My favorite country artist, Mary Chapin Carpenter, is coming to Boston in Sept and I really want to see her. I don’t know how much tickets are. They go on sale today. I hope I can afford them. It would be wonderful to see her again.