Saturday Blog 15032025
I had a good sleep but I woke up in the middle of the night. I was up for two hours or so. I had to pee and for some reason, my bowels decided to go too. I went back to sleep and woke up to my med alarm. I shut it off but didn’t get up. The next thing I heard was the alarm for my game. I still didn’t get up. I finally decided to get up around 4pm. I was in a mood but I was hungry. I made something to eat. Bitch left me a note and I didn’t do anything. I cleaned up after I ate. Then went to do my Italian homework.
I have until the 23rd to do it and I am grateful because once again, I don’t know what the fuck I am doing. I went over the videos again and things made sense until I got to the homework and was, ok maybe not.
I feel wicked suicidal. I won’t act on how I feel but I just want to die. I don’t even know why I feel this way as I just woke up like this. Nothing happened. I hate when my mood is so low and thoughts are just dire. I am going to go back to sleep after I write this because I am just so tired. My country is going to shit and the people “in charge” don’t give a fuck anymore.
Last night I thought I was going to have to go to the ED. I was having some major pain all over my chest. Eventually it settled down and I was able to sleep. It’s bothering me a little bit today.
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