Saturday Blog 10052025

Saturday Blog 10052025

Today was a clusterfuck. There were events around my city. I was hoping to be up before the mayhem but I couldn’t get up. I got up at noon. Took my meds and it took me forever to brush my teeth. I pet the puppy who was happy to see me. She kept nuzzling her nose in my chest. I hadn’t seen her in like three days. Anyway, I finally brushed my teeth so I could leave the house with something washed. I haven’t had a shower in more than a week now. I will take one later tonight after I finish my Italian homework.

There was some traffic in the square and if I had looked to see what the time bus was before it left the station stop, I would have gotten off at the station. I decided to wait but the bus never came. I was so pissed off. I went in the Asian market and ended up paying ten bucks for two quarts of half and half just so I can have fucking coffee.

I just came home and omg there is some band trying to sing and they can’t fucking sing. I have never seen so many people in the streets. I was starving and luckily my brother in law brought up the rotisserie chicken that he had. I had half of a breast. I am going to see if my sister can make the yummy chicken salad she made the other day again. It was the bomb of chicken salads. I have no idea what she puts in it but it is so good.

I had a cup of coffee when I came home. It felt good to have something warm as I spent nearly an hour out in the cold. It’s warming now but I am still kind of cold. It’s cool in my room. Luckily the wind isn’t blowing or I think it would be colder. The sun finally came out and it stopped raining. I would have gone out yesterday but it was a cold, windy, rainy day. Not my kind of weather.

I still feel wicked depressed. I miss my mother. I hate mother’s day. I always hated it but now I hate it even more. I am so tired. I hope I can take a shower tonight. I think I will feel better, at least a little bit. I will shave and stuff tomorrow. I got one chapter left in my book and I should finish it by Tues. Can’t believe the semester is over. I should be done with everything by next Sunday. Soon as I finish the book, I will start my paper.

I just have therapy and seeing my DMH worker for appts. I don’t have any doctor appts until July. I have the bottom surgery consult then. I am on the fence on whether I am going to keep it or not. I have no idea when I can expect the surgery. I still have to get two letters done for it. I’m not sure it will change much just that I will feel more whole.