My second treatment didn’t go well. I was more suicidal and depressed. I slept early and then woke up with a wicked headache.
I talked with the psychologist and we both agreed that ketamine is not for me. We also talked about the stress of being home. She wants me to talk more in my therapy about it. My therapist hasn’t responded to any of my texts. I’ll try her again today.
The study staff finally left a charger for the fitbit. It died yesterday morning. It charged while I was recovering from ketamine. It was a lot to handle. They gave me extra Valium and that just knocked me out. I had a good nurse last night.
I’m thinking of writing an email to my therapist about the stuff the psychologist and I talked about. The psychologist also said that I am angry and shut down when I feel it. She also thinks it is fueling the suicidal thoughts.
I got an email from UMB about financial aid. I got to do the SAP thing again so I am hopeful I will get aid next year. I will do that tomorrow when I get home.
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