Out in 90 degree weather
It was hot out but not humid thank god. I think I would have died as I walked from the train station to the DMH office. My legs felt like a combo of cement and jello as they were heavy and weak. I had one coffee before I left the house and then I took a Lyft to the train station so I could get a latte and something to eat at Starbucks. I rested as much as I could and it still took me almost twenty minutes to walk 0.1 miles. My legs were not having it so I had to walk slow.
After the appt I went to the grocery store. Luckily the cereal aisle was near the milk. I also got some chicken wings for dinner as I have been craving them. I got a steak and cheese at Jersey Mike’s as it was a new place I never been to. It was a good sub but the bread was not good. It fell apart as I was eating it.
I got home quick. Train and bus were minimal wait though it took me forever to walk down the street that becomes a mile long. I stopped midway for a bit. I had to rest. I hope that once I start to lose weight my legs don’t become jelly. I am so glad I didn’t take the puppy with me. I thought about it but it was too much heat. I became a sweat ball by the time I came home. My shirt was soaked with sweat.
I talked to my DMH worker about my therapist. I had a hard time getting to sleep last night, partly because the Sox score kept seesawing back and forth. They finally won in the 11th inning. I was fidgety and thought about what the therapist sent me. I went over it and it had NOTHING to do with me. I couldn’t connect with it and it made no sense trying to learn it. What I sent her made sense and applied to me. There is no reason to go to another set of beliefs. I started writing a post but I was so tired I couldn’t get my thoughts together. I wrote a paragraph. I will share it tomorrow. The platform that she uses for virtual appts isn’t zoom so I can’t share the doc. I will just message it in the app.
I am tired. I just gave the puppy a bunch of treats. Then we played tug of war. She doesn’t get aggressive. She has to be the calmest puppy I’ve ever met. She will have her zoomies though. Out in our yard she runs around like crazy. I love her so much.
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