Upsetting day
I slept for a few hours and then I was up at 145am. I stayed up and read for a few hours. Then I paid some bills and tried to go back to sleep. I wasn’t successful until after 7am. I woke up at 10 to pee and take my meds. I thought about ordering breakfast but by the time I checked my messages and notifications, it was after breakfast time at McDs. I ordered a pizza instead as I was craving it. I ordered an extra sprite so I could make my cake with blueberries. I ordered some groceries. I plan on making sausage, peppers, and potatoes this weekend. It has been a long time since I had it but it will be the first time making it.
After I had pizza, it was time for therapy. It was a good session. She seems really open to me talking and encouraged transference. Unfortunately, it was around the time that we were ending so I didn’t get into it but said it would probably be another session. I half wanted to tell her I had another therapist appt but couldn’t bring myself to do it. I am just looking. I still really feel she is too inexperienced for me.
I spent a an hour trying to get the puppy settled. She was upset that daddy left her as she just balled herself up in her crate away from the opening. I tried cuddling her but she didn’t want that. After she put herself in the crate again, I gave up and went upstairs to my room. It was around the time my niece would be coming home. About an hour later, I get a text from my insurance saying they are not covering the weight loss drug. It was after 5pm, on a damn Friday. I am so damn upset. I have to wait till Monday to talk to my doc about what to do on appealing. I just feel like I put myself out there and then got shot down. I have struggled with my weight for years and no matter what I do, I lose the same 10 to 20 pounds all the time. But this is the first time that I am seeking care for it. It just has me so upset.
I have been in pain the last twenty-four hours with my foot/ankle. I think the temp changes have fucked me up with the CRPS. I haven’t taken pain meds because the pain is tolerable but it is interfering with my sleep. Foot is either hurting or ice cold. Ankle just hurts to move it. Makes going up and down stairs difficult. I am glad it is so much cooler now. I can leave my room without getting sick from the heat. I hope it stays cool over the weekend so I can make a cake and maybe some cinnamon rolls.
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