You’re taking me out

You’re taking me out

I am absolutely in love with the song “Ordinary”. I have listened to it on repeat so many times. Such a good song.

I was up during the night, had to pee, and couldn’t go back to sleep. Then my sister got up and omg she was making so much noise. I thought she would be going to work but I forgot it is Sunday. Finally she stopped making so much noise and I was able to sleep until my med alarm went off. I didn’t get up. I kept having weird dreams. Then I had to pee and I was up around 2. My niece texted me saying she was here so I brushed my teeth and then made a cup of coffee. I went downstairs to watch the rest of the Pats game. They were killing the Browns and just scored a touchdown when I came in. My brother in law made burgers so I had one. After the game I went upstairs to do some work.

I read what the question was and also the article that was required. I didn’t like the article. It was about racism in intelligence tests and it just went on and on about it. I didn’t finish reading the article. Now I got to come up with some Darwinian argument for Western civilization something. Only problem is I think I remember reading Darwin was racist in his ways but I don’t remember where I read that. Or if that is true.

I am so tired. These night of staying up and then sleeping in the morning are getting to me. In the afternoon I get sort of crazy restlessness where being in my own skin bothers me and I have to move to keep from feeling this way. I don’t know if it is anxiety or something else. I counted out pills last night and almost took them. I looked at them and just put them back in the bottle. I just messaged my psychiatrist about this. I don’t know maybe the sleep and the stress of home and school are causing this. I know next semester is going to be harder. I am almost done with my requirement classes. I think I have like two or three left. Then I just have to take two or three elective classes. I am getting there but it is so painful.