Another day another sleepless night
I hardly slept last night. My stomach was burning with reflux. I tried Mylanta but it only worked for like an hour. I didn’t have much to eat so I have no idea what upset it. Only thing I can think of is the weight loss drug giving me a reaction. My stomach has been ok today but I have been lousy at drinking fluids. I woke up late and wasn’t in the mood for a coffee.
I pretty much stayed in bed most of the day. Sometimes I would doze off. I had some soup for dinner and then I drank some water. I had to go to the bathroom and I just peed when I got up. It was only a little but I had to change my underwear. Luckily I didn’t wet my PJs.
It snowed today. The puppy went out in it. It wasn’t much, only an inch or so. I was excited when I saw it. It’s been windy so my room had been kind of chilly. I like it though. I just hope temps don’t drop of the windchill will be colder.
I started reading Night Falls Fast last night as I couldn’t sleep. I love this book so much. I learn something new every time I read it. I wish I had it when I was writing my paper. It would have been a good resource. I still haven’t gotten back my grades on anything. She is usually quick with correcting stuff. She probably is tearing up the last page of my paper.
I told a friend what I did a month ago with overdosing. She didn’t yell at me or criticize me. I have therapy tomorrow. I might tell her. Depends how I feel. I feel really closed off from my feelings. Most of the time I am numb or just not feeling anything at all. I’m just jaded. The anhedonia is so profound. I feel more melancholic than depressed. I don’t want to do anything but stay in bed.
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