pain today

Pain today

Since Saturday, my gallbladder has been flared and it has continued today. This is my third day of pain. I messaged my pcp and the RN interfered with a bunch of questions. I responded then got nothing back. Assholes.

I had therapy today. She had no insight into why I am dreaming about the psych hospital. Maybe I am because I feel safe there. I don’t have to worry about my safety all the time. We talked about the weekend and I told her how flared up I was Saturday and I didn’t sleep till around 4am yesterday. I slept good last night. I don’t remember if I took trazodone or not. It was really hard for me to get up this morning though. I didn’t want to get up.

I think I am going to have to take a pain pill tonight because the pain in my side hasn’t gone away. I am also getting a headache. Today has been a long day for me. I took care of the puppy. I fed her and cleaned up after her. I thought an hour would be enough time to wait to take her out but it wasn’t. She pooped on the kitchen and peed twice under the kitchen table, her new favorite spot. I had a 3^rd cup of coffee after therapy. It didn’t give me any energy and I still felt blah.

I decided today to make an appt with the barber so get my head shaved. I will be going Wed. I hope my prescription for my migraine med will be in by then. It’s out of stock right now. I made an appt to see my psychiatrist on Thurs. I hope he can help with the depression. I am really struggling with it. I hate being tired all the damn time. All I want to do is sleep or lay down. I am worried that I may end up skipping class because I don’t want to go because I am too depressed. Three straight days of being on campus is going to be a huge effort for me. And especially as they are at night, it is going to be even more so that I have enough spoons for class. I have to plan my dinner because of taking the Latuda. Otherwise I will be drinking Ensure if I don’t feel like eating. I need to get another case of it. I hate that it costs so much.