all I forgot

All I forgot

I have a new song that I got the other day by Ashley Cooke and one of the Jonas brothers. I think it’s Joe but I am not sure. It is a good song. I went grocery shopping today and then I had therapy. It was a good therapy session. She thinks I should have a reward system when I finish reading or doing school work. I don’t know what that could be that isn’t food related. I was thinking chocolate but I am trying to lose weight.

I brought down some of my recycling that was on the bed. I got to find one of my meds that is a mail order. I am running low on pills and I can’t remember if I got it filled or not. I still need to shave and/or shower. I haven’t decided what I am going to do yet. I really don’t feel like doing anything. I got another headache. I have been drinking water most of the day and trying to keep hydrated. There is a storm coming this weekend, supposedly. It was supposed to be Sat now it’s Sun to Mon but it could be pushed out to sea. Either way, the pressure is killing me. I started the steroid pack today. So far I have been good and haven’t missed a dose.

I am feeling like I want to die. I have so much to do and I just feel stuck to do it. I am stressing out about class. The exam has been moved but now there are four chapters to cover and I need to know what makes an amino acid. My brain is fried or in a fog. Other than when it gives me headaches/migraines. I don’t know what I am doing anymore. The funny part is I got a school email that told me I have enough credits to graduate (I don’t but I am getting there). Apparently once I do have the credits (in like 2 years), I have to go through a review process and that costs like $200 to graduate. And I know I am only like 4 weeks into this semester but I am already thinking about what to take in the fall. I still need to take a 400 level psych class and some elective. I also think I need to take a social/behavioral science class for requirements. My degree feel so far out of reach but I keep plugging away. It is so draining me but I want to do this. The hope was to have it done by the time I was 50 but it is looking closer to 52 or 53.

I am really tired. Last night I went on Hulu to watch something to settle down and that didn’t work. By midnight I wanted to binge Cheers, the TV show. I just love Shelley Long. She is so funny. I am going to watch a couple episodes tonight after I review chapter 1. I just took my night meds. I got to be more conscious about my meds at night because I forgot to take them Sunday. I know I shut the alarm off and then I got distracted. Never took my meds. I hope my headache settles down. I took some ibuprofen. I am out of Tylenol, my go to. I am going to try and steal some from my sister.