CRPS flare and no sleep

CRPS flare and no sleep

Last night I went to bed a little late and soon after I laid down, it felt like someone was stabbing me in my ankle joint. The pain wouldn’t subside, at all. I took a pain med and it caused me to be up all night. I didn’t go to sleep till around 7am and only slept for a few hours. I had to be up because of therapy. I nearly fell asleep a few times. Needless to say I didn’t go to class today. I was able to do my hair though. I am all shaved off.

Therapy went ok. We talked about psychache and how it affects my suicidality. She asked if I contacted a crisis line and I said no. I didn’t feel like talking to anyone. I just sent her a blog post I wrote about psychache theory. I hope it helps her. She wanted to see me again this week because we talked so much about heavy stuff. I told her how I could just end my life and not really have a reason. But I don’t want to do anything now as classes are important to me.

I am listening to the first night ball game. The Sox are in Houston playing the Astros. New pitcher is pitching for Sox.

I haven’t really ate much today. I wasn’t really hungry. My sister made raviolis and meatballs. I had one meatball and like 5 raviolis. I was full. I had a little piece of cheesecake and that sent my stomach to overfull. My stomach has been bothering me. I haven’t had a BM in a few days so that maybe why. I have been trying different things as taking the senna and magnesium will give me the runs for some reason. I don’t want to take the senna when I know I will be out. I hate using public bathrooms to poop.

I never made it out today and the weather was nice. Tomorrow there is some calls for storms, which is probably why the CRPS flared up last night. I feel so sleepy. I don’t know if I am going to listen to all 9 innings. Sox are down by 1.