Category: depression

Schoolwork and other things

I woke up after have a dream I was peeing in my aunt’s bathroom so I got up to pee. It was around 7am. I wasn’t ready to face the day. I went back to sleep and then my med alarm went off. I still didn’t get up. I got some messages around noon and decided to get up then. I had some coffee and cookies. Then made some oatmeal. I wanted some eggs but didn’t feel like cooking. My stomach was iffy and I didn’t want to change it getting upset again. I was in agony most of the night with heartburn. I decided to take my reflux pill rather than wait for the Mylanta to work.

It’s been humid today and grass has been in the air as I have been sneezing and congested again. I was watching the puppy. She did good by peeing out on the porch. She was such a debby downer though while her mom was out shopping. She was just moping around the house. I kept giving her pats but I wasn’t mom.

After I had my oatmeal and coffee (just one cup), I did some schoolwork. I have been doing my psych readings that I have neglected to do all week. Now I got a shit ton to read. I finally found the one article I am to write to get credit on. It was the recommended readings so I didn’t find it right away. It is a shit ton long.

I had dinner with my sister. I wanted a salad. My bro in law made turkey burgers but I didn’t like it. They had stuff in the mix and it was salty. I am pretty full now and kind of sleepy. I still need to do some research on one of the professors at UMB. I hope I can find what I am looking for as it is too late now to send her a message. This psych class is driving me crazy. This group project is going to be a bitch. I think there are like six people in the group, myself included.

My back has been bothering me since this morning. It’s in the middle so not sure what to do about it. I would take ibuprofen but I don’t want it upsetting my stomach. I don’t have much going on this week. I need to go to the library to get the books I need for my Econ assignment. I got an appt with my pcp and DMH worker later this week, both on the same day. I hope this week isn’t too busy school wise. I am already tired.

Saturday Blog 13092025

I woke up early to pee and had a difficult time getting back to sleep. It was like 6am and I had some Gatorade which my stomach did not like at all. OMG the reflux and upset stomach were terrible. I decided to take my meds at 630 thinking the stomach med would help. It took like three and a half hours for my stomach to settle. I was awake but I didn’t feel like eating or drinking anything. I eventually dozed off for an hour or so.

I got up around one. I decided to risk having some coffee because my brain needed some stimulation. I needed to focus on my Econ stuff. I took the quizzes and the first quiz I got a 62. Quiz 2 I got an 80. I got an email that my books are finally at the library. The library closed at 1 so I wasn’t able to get them today. I will go Monday. Now I can focus on psych for the remainder of the day. The professor is pissing me off. She added another thing to the app thingy. I keep getting notifications left and right and I am just getting annoyed. It’s only been two weeks! WTF

Pollen is not high today but grass is in the mix so I have been sneezing my head off. I have been stuffy since I got up today. I had when my nose is congested. I hope I am not getting a cold. I got the Covid vaccine yesterday. Arm is sore. I don’t have any other symptoms. Now that I have the Econ stuff done, I am feeling tired but I know it’s probably because I haven’t eaten anything other than a blueberry muffin with my coffee. I only had one cup because I wasn’t sure how my stomach was going to react.

I need to shower today. I have been trying to motivate myself but nothing is working. I keep scrolling on my phone and stuff. Sox are losing right now. Game just started. OSU plays at 7. So there will be back to back game action for me. Going to be hard to focus on my psych stuff. One of the assignments I am not sure how I am going to do. I tried googling but didn’t get too far and now it’s the weekend so I can’t interview the person I need to. Fuck.

Take it out on me

I didn’t sleep well last night. Pain was keeping me up. My foot and ankle were horrible. Then we had the stupid fire alarms going off for whatever reason. It was a difficult night for every one. I didn’t get up till after 11. I checked on the dog. She was ok. She didn’t pee anywhere. She is getting better. There was poop on the porch but I didn’t clean it up. I just couldn’t bring myself to do it.

I had my coffee. My money got refunded so I ordered lunch and some snacks. Then I went to get my covid shot. I was feeling ok. I decided to take the bus to the library rather than a Lyft. The library didn’t have the books I placed on hold. They were in transit. I ordered a couple more books for the books assignment I have to do. Then I went to Starbucks to get something to drink and a muffin. I wanted a pumpkin one but they were out. I got a blueberry one. I will have it in the morning with my coffee.

After I got home, I asked my sister if she wanted to go to the Pub for dinner. She said to text her husband and my other sister. Her husband didn’t want to come so it was just my sisters. We had a good time. Then they started blaring the music and we decided to leave.

I am down another four pounds. I have lost 13 pounds so far. I still having stomach upset and reflux is worse. I also haven’t been regular which is irritating me. I have to take Miralax but it is a pain. I have a cup in my room now so I hope I can take more doses.

I haven’t done any schoolwork today. I might read some Econ before bed. All of my psych is on the laptop and that will hurt my neck. I still have to take the quizzes. Soon as I finish the chapter I will. Hope it is all multiple choice and no write in answers. I hate that.