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Saturday Blog 12102024

I went to the ED last night because I was on day 10 on my headaches/migraines. I couldn’t take it anymore. I spent the night in the ED. I didn’t sleep. I didn’t eat. I drank some. Because of the fluid shortage, they didn’t give me fluids. I was thankful because every cup of water I drank went right through me. It took three rounds of meds to get the headaches to a tolerable level and then they discharged me. They want me to follow up with my neuro so I got to call on Tues to see if I can move up my appointment. The neuro attending told me about NSAID rebound. I hope my toothache doesn’t come back.

I slept for a couple of hours and I didn’t dream. I had some leftover Chinese food because I didn’t feel like cooking. I’ll cook tomorrow when I feel a little better. I woke up my head was hurting again but I think it was because I haven’t eaten anything all day or really had much to drink.

My bed dropped my textbook on the floor. I don’t know how it did it. I laughed. I guess I am not studying tonight. I need to re-read chapters 6 and 7. I think once I go over those chapters I will be confident to take the exam. I have until Tues to take it.

Anyways that is the update for today. I am tired and beat. Hope I can sleep tonight.

Migraine continues day 10

I am on day 10 of migraine. I got my holter monitor last night. I had a palpitations episode while I was sleeping but it kind of woke me up. I sort of pressed the button but the palpitations had stopped. I read that the thing kept recording so that was good. I have been feeling ick all week. I tried to study but my mind keeps going blank.

I had message my neuro the other day and she increased the gabapentin to three times a day. So far it hasn’t changed anything. I went to class yesterday. I struggled to pay attention to what was going on. We didn’t spend that much time on reviewing the study guide. I just went over it and had a heart attack. There were stuff on it that I had to look up. Stuff from chapter 6. I have a wicked migraine right now and my brain keeps blanking out on me. I messaged the neuro again to see what I was supposed to do in the mean time. I know it is kind of late in the afternoon so my neuro might not get it. I plan on going to the ED. I don’t know if the holter monitor is going to pose a problem should they need to do an EKG. I hope they don’t need to do one.

I feel kind of dizzy. I haven’t been drinking fluids. I just had a cup of coffee today and half a bottle of soda. That has been it for fluid intake. I am so tired. I just want to go back to sleep. Today has been rough with the damn headaches. I have had dreams that have been giving me headaches and shit. The dreams make no sense. I don’t remember them. I hate dreaming. It’s really fucking up my life.

Wicked bad terrible day

So I woke up feeling fine. No damn headache. I thought it was going to be a good day. Then I went and had coffee. I had to fill up the water reservoir as it was empty. Then I figured I might as well fill the water jug. I still need to change the filter on it. I will do that tomorrow or this weekend. Sounds started to bother me and I started to panic. My tooth has been bothering me the last few days. It was cold in the kitchen as someone had opened the door. I kept it open in case the weather changed. Yesterday it was cold in the morning but got warm by the afternoon.

After I had my two cups of coffee I went to my room and there was someone using a leaf blower and my head just exploded. So much for a headache free day. Hello day 9 of headache land. I messaged my neuro again and said if I didn’t hear back from her by tomorrow, I would go to the ED. Well, she messaged me back with there is nothing she could do as I have allergies. She wanted to know how much gabapentin I was taking so I responded and I haven’t heard back so I guess I am going to go the Ed tomorrow. I don’t know what else to do. I can’t go on like this. So after I got this message I felt defeated so decided to lay down for a bit. The people from therapy called. They wanted to set me up with someone but the time they gave me is the time I have class. I can’t meet. So I am back on the waiting list. Today just sucks and I wish I never woke up. Fucking fuck.

My headache is an 8 out of 10. I just want to lay down. I did study some. I took some notes. I went over the basal ganglia and the limbic system. Then I went over the synaptic transport thing and got confused as fuck. I will ask questions about it tomorrow. We kind of stopped there yesterday. It’s where calcium ions tell neurotransmitters to fire or not. I have to go over the steps.

I have a breakout of zits on my neck. It is so damn itchy. I also have a few on the top of my shoulder. I keep wanting to put some benzoil peroxide on it but I have to take my shirt off as it can stain it but it’s too cold in my room.

I honestly am just going to try and read the library book tonight. If I read a few chapters, I should be able to finish the book by the weekend. I don’t have that much more to read. The chapters aren’t long and I can usually read like three in forty-five minutes or so. It is getting really interesting. I think there are more books in the series. I hope so anyway. It is really good writing. Oh, speaking of writing. My aunt called me yesterday while I was on my way to class. She got my book and loved it, said it was well written. She read it straight through. It made my day! I was so happy. I was kind of nervous because I spoke the truth about how my mother treated me and was worried that now that she died, it was going to be hard to hear with family members. I am glad it wasn’t the case. I am also glad they didn’t want to talk about my suicide attempt that happened two years ago. I often think about it, especially as this time of year, I was in the hospital trying to remember what the hell happened. I was still catatonic and thinking I was a dead person. Strange how being taken off your meds can change your thinking.