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Blue Powerade

I woke up with another damn migraine today. It is day 7. I messaged my neuro. I still haven’t heard back yet. I have a feeling I am not going to hear back today. I took some Excedrin but it hasn’t done nothing. I’ve been trying to do school work but all I want to do is rest my head. I ordered Chinese food because I couldn’t be bothered to make something. I had a blueberry muffin and coffee for breakfast. I had two cups of coffee.

I haven’t done much today. I shaved and brushed my teeth. It took an effort to shave because my head hurt so bad. I couldn’t postpone it another day because my hair was getting long. I need to shower today but I don’t think I am. I am struggling to stay awake. I managed to do some school work but I still haven’t read my textbook. I need to go over the structures and where they are in the brain. I need to study them. It’s an open notebook exam, which kind of helps but if I don’t know the structures, I am screwed.

I kept on having weird dreams last night. Every time I woke up from them, I had a damn headache. I would go to the ED but I can’t afford to miss class right now with the exam being so close. I have been drinking blue Powerade all day to try and keep up with fluids. I am thinking of having pumpkin pie ice cream but my stomach feels really full right now so I don’t know if I should eat anything else.

I am so tired of my head hurting me. I also just feel so sleepy. I didn’t sleep through the night. I woke up around 1am because I had to pee. And then had a hard time getting back to sleep. I read for a little bit. Then managed to get back to sleep only to have weird dream with headaches. I should have stayed up. My head would probably hurt less. It was still hurting but not as much. I have class tomorrow. I feel like I am forgetting something to do but I have done the things that were due. I just need to read. But I can’t concentrate with this level of headache and being tired. Maybe later.

Slept in late

I completed all my school work last night. I got a 10/10 on the quiz, though it took me a few tries. I had such a headache last night. Nothing was working. The ibuprofen didn’t even touch it. I was so tired. I really didn’t have anything to do today. I slept till 430pm. I still woke up with a headache. This makes day 6 in a row that I have had a migraine or a headache. I got up and had something to eat and then had a cup of coffee with a muffin. My sister made some soup but it wasn’t ready yet. My brother in law brought up her hutch. She moved some stuff in it. I have no idea what it is in it. She said some baking stuff is in it. And she moved the Tupperware stuff to another cabinet.

I feel so tired and depressed. I have been feeling like I don’t want to be around anymore. I don’t feel suicidal. I just don’t want to exist. I just feel so down. The headaches are becoming so chronic. Hopefully one of my doctors gets back to me tomorrow. I have a busy next couple of weeks with school. I need to study for my exam and this depression is making every thing harder than it should be. I seriously thought about going to the ED last night but what were they going to do other than just give me meds and fluids?

I put my sound machine on last night to help me sleep. It helps. I am still fricken tired despite sleeping all night. My head hurts so much. Nothing works anymore. I am so frustrated. I am going to bed.

Saturday Blog 05102024

I have had a shit day. I had a headache all day yesterday that went into the night. I woke up to pee and couldn’t go back to sleep because my head was hurting too much. I was up half the night. Then when I did sleep, I had weird dreams that caused my head to hurt more. I sent messages to my doctors, all three of them and got no responses. My psychiatrist thinks I am skipping my meds and even though I said I am not, I don’t think he is convinced. I am just fed up.

I still have the headache today. I’ve had three cups of coffee. I ordered groceries. They aren’t coming for another hour so I figure I would blog. I have to do some school work but I have no idea what the fuck I am doing. I texted my classmates and no one responded. One of them didn’t even know it was due. I still need to take the quiz. I will take it after I do this stupid action potential thing.

I picked up my suit today. It fits good. I also got my meds. I ran out of Topamax last night. I totally forgot to get it filled yesterday so I missed a dose. I am back on track today though. I also got more Sudafed. I needed that. I am so damn tired. I just want to fucking sleep. But I have so much to fucking do. I hate that these headaches/migraines are making me feel like shit. I finally got the brain assignment done. It took me all day yesterday to do it. I still don’t think I did it right but I don’t really care.