midnightdemons7

Behind in reading

Day has been going ok so far. I had therapy and it went ok. We didn’t go into anything specific. I told her how stressful my paper was and how I wanted nothing to do with psychology after it. We talked about some classes I am thinking about for next semester. One is the biology course and the other is the gender course. I am also thinking of taking the semester off but I feel like I will be bored shitless if that happens. I need to talk to my advisor.

It was cold in my room so I put on a hoodie. Then my sister told me to fold the laundry and I got hot by bringing the clothes to my niece’s room. Most of the clothes were hers. I only had like six things. I showered yesterday and shaved. I need to buy more toothpaste. I signed up to get the Novavax vaccine for tomorrow so I will get it then if I remember. I also need to get B vitamins as I am out. My meds are ready so will do everything tomorrow.

I read the first few pages that I was supposed to. I was taking a mini break when my laptop went berserk. It started moving my mouse and scrolling the pages. I wasn’t even touching the laptop. It was so weird. That is all the reading so far that I have done. I will finish it later. I did all the stuff that needs to be turned in yesterday. I hope the professor doesn’t give us a lot of stuff this week. It’s a short week because of the holiday. I am not going to look at my grade of my paper until the last day of class. Three more weeks and it will be over. I have an exam the last week of class. The professor said it’s “easy” so it most likely will be hard. There will be a prep of some kind. I’m glad because my mind has been sieve lately. Nothing is being stored.

I don’t know why the fuck they need to stitch the strings of hoodies and sweats into the material. Used to be that you can pull it out but now you can’t. GRRR. Pisses me off. You got to cut it out. I hate the strings anyway. I never use them.

I am so damn tired. Puppy wasn’t around today and I was sad. I have been in a tearful mood since therapy. I don’t know why. I just feel so depressed. I was up during the night for a little bit. I couldn’t sleep. All the things of what I had to read kept me up. I didn’t get up till 11. Had two cups of coffee. I needed caffeine today. I feel like I could go to bed now. I just want to stay in bed. I don’t want to do anything anymore. I feel so numb to the pain. It’s like I am so jaded. My neck is so tense from all the stress. I love Thanksgiving but being around family stresses me out.

Tired and cranky

I had weird dreams last night. I don’t know why I keep dreaming of being on a psych ward but I do. My med alarm went off and I didn’t get up. I stayed in bed till after noon then got up. I didn’t feel like getting up before noon. I had my coffee and a yogurt. Then I had some pepperoni and crackers.

I went back up to my room to read. I read about a page and then I was inundated with texts. My niece wanted me to unlock the door for her ex to let the dog in. So I went downstairs and unlocked the door. Someone came home and locked it so by the time he showed his ass, it was locked and I had to go downstairs again to open it. I was tired going up and down the stairs. I opened the door and he wasn’t there. Fucking jerk. Probably off smoking pot.

I went back to my room but I couldn’t concentrate on the reading. I will get back to it later. I need to shower. I think I will do that before bed. Tomorrow my sister is going to take me to the grocery store. I am not sure what I am going to get for $20. I need half and half. Maybe another thing of yogurt as I had the last one. I want to get another chicken pot pie soup as that was so good. I also need to get squash for Thursday. I think I am going to get the frozen kind if they have it.

I got a headache. I took some Excedrin and that helped. I have been trying to increase my fluids. My blood pressure is still on the high side. I am keeping track of it. I called to see if the weight loss drug would be ready but they haven’t received the prior auth from my pcp’s office. I know they are short right now so I am going to wait till Monday to ask the status. I don’t know why I need another prior authorization because they approved it already.

I had some soup for dinner. I thought it was the chicken pot pie one but it wasn’t and I was disappointed. It was still good as it had dumplings in it. It was filling. It is definitely soup season with the temps being in the 30s. I haven’t really left my house since Tues. Every since they closed my Starbucks, I haven’t found a reason to leave unless I have to pick up my meds. Mon I will probably have to leave the house to do so because my migraine med should be ready. I get paid Mon. I am hoping I have enough to get the migraine med and weight loss drug. Each cost $40. I hope I don’t have to pay more next year.