midnightdemons7

Wasted fucking day

I woke up in the middle of the night to pee but was able to sort of get back to sleep. My sister was fucking loud when she left for work so I woke up early to pee again. I didn’t want to get up because I was nervous about my appt. I slept for a bit but still got up around 11. I took my meds and I had a shitload of messages. My econ prof went nuts. I had so many notifications some of which we weren’t on yet. I missed the message from my psych prof. For some reason, I get email from my school address sent to my private email and I found it in the delete folder. I thought it was weird I didn’t get a notification but it was the first message after all the stupid econ ones.

I had coffee and then made a sandwich. I played with the dog and took some pictures of her as she was so damn cute. Then I got ready. I was early and waited a half hour for the bus. I got to the hospital at 2 and to the shuttle depot by 215. The shuttle I was to take wasn’t there. I waited. And waited. And waited. I called transportation and the shuttle was delayed. It was nearly a half hour before my appt. There was no way I was going to go across town in a half hour. And I missed my appt. It was nearly 4pm by the time I got to the other hospital area in Boston. I was tired and hungry. I was thankful I bought a water bottle before I got on the train. I took an alternate route home and didn’t get home till 530. I was starving. I had a bowl of cereal. It was my neighbor’s birthday so I went downstairs before going to my room. I knew if I went to my room, I wasn’t going out again. I had fun but I was wicked tired and pissed off that I spent an afternoon stuck.

I just came home now and took my night meds. I have a headache. I won’t be reading Econ tonight. I played with the pup for a bit. She was laying down. The only good news is that I started the book for my econ book assignment and due to the prof restructuring grades, I am at a 47 instead a 27. I am still failing. I am hoping the book part brings my grade up. Because if it doesn’t, I am screwed.

Daaaa Yankees Lose!!!!

I was so happy the Skankees lost last night. They choked again. HAHA. Now I will be rooting for the Jays to win the AL.

I got up later than I wanted to but I still was able to get done what I needed to. I have done mostly everything except start my Econ chapter. I have been researching an article for my paper but I am not getting anywhere with it. I might have email the professor and  get her help with it.

Tomorrow I have my bottom surgery consult. I answered the pre-registration questions. I am nervous. I still don’t know what way I am going to go, red or orange line. I have to take a shuttle to the hospital so I have to leave plenty of time. I figure if I leave before 2 I should be there by 3 and maybe be able to go to Starbucks for a coffee. There was one by the hospitals the last time I was there. I hope it is still there. I don’t think I saw it on the list of closures.

I got my new glasses last night. Now I can read on the laptop without straining my neck. Everything is clear. It is cold today. Temps will be the same tomorrow. I love it because I can wear my hoodies.

I am feeling kind of depressed lately. I just have so much to do it is stressing me out. I haven’t read my psych or Econ all week. I got a quiz due Mon and it is 230 questions. Prof should just call it a damn test with that many questions. I am going to be referring to my book a lot.

Slept most of the day

I had a difficult time trying to relax last night and sleep. I was so anxious about school. I felt like I should be doing something but I didn’t know what to do. My bed needs to be cleared off and I thought about throwing everything on the floor. I was so agitated. I finally took some Ativan. It helped me calm down some and I was able to sleep. Then I woke up around 3 to pee. I took some more Ativan to sleep and got up when my alarm went off. I had to meet my psych prof.

The meeting went ok but I am no closer to writing this paper. I have to look up some old issues of the topic. I re-read my psych article and found it has nothing to do with the damn exam. Fucking fuck. She gave us a hypothetical question we are to answer as if I were Jung. Great. I have to get started on it tomorrow. I have no idea where to start.

My new glasses came and I can finally read again without problems. I think they look good on me. If I am up tomorrow morning, I am going to go to the pharmacy and get my meds. I can’t believe I slept all afternoon. It was a good sleep though. I had some play time with the puppy but she didn’t want too much petting. I got to try and get as much school work done between now and Saturday. Fri I have an appt in the late afternoon so I don’t think I will be able to do much work. Sunday my family and I are going apple picking. I have never been before. It will be my first time. I am looking forward to some cider!

Up wicked early

I woke up sometime after 4 to pee and never got back to sleep. Then I started sneezing and it was over. I was up. Around six I got hungry so I went downstairs to make coffee and something to eat. I was in the mood for pancakes. My niece was up getting ready for work. We talked for a bit. Then the puppy came in the kitchen and did her business and promptly left. She was a grump all day. Though she did give me kisses.

I got multiple messages from my Econ professor about career expo and a make up test for test 2. I was happy to hear that. I went over some of the material while I was fresh brained from coffee and then I got confused. Brain fog took over and I have been fighting it ever since. I went over the psych material and it is a lot of reading. I still need to re-read the Jung article and hope it makes sense so I can start a discussion about it for my exam. Apparently the exam is to discuss and then respond to two other students. I would rather have an essay test. It is so hard to respond to another student.

I got another headache today. Tylenol helped and so did a nap. I had a roast beef sandwich for lunch. The puppy was outside while I was eating otherwise she would have wanted some. I have been playing my game and on the news app which I shouldn’t be because it is pissing me off. I am tired. I made a burger for supper. I ordered my drinks that came around 3. I wanted to go to the square to pick up my order but it was too late. I will go tomorrow. I should have went in the morning but I opted to nap instead.

My pcp got back to me about the vision thing. They gave me the number to call for an appt. I will call in the morning. I have to be up early because I am meeting my psych prof to discuss my paper. This week’s thing on the paper is hard because I don’t have a real starting point for my topic. That is what I need to discuss.