midnightdemons7

I just can’t drink with you

I have been listening to Brett Young’s 2.0 album. I love his song drink with you.

I got up later than I planned. My meds weren’t ready so I didn’t go out again today. I played with the puppy more. I found it hard to concentrate on my school work. I had one cup of coffee and my stomach felt full. I ordered lunch and now I am stuffed. I wanted pad thai but the place was closed. I had Kung Pao instead. The puppy wanted some too but I didn’t give her any. Spicy isn’t good for doggies.

I want to take a shower today but haven’t done so yet. I might do it tomorrow. I am not really feeling well today. I just feel so down. My stomach is upset. I just want to lay down. I don’t care if I sleep or not. I just don’t want to be up. I had a weird dream I gave birth to a baby. It’s weird because I never thought of being a mother before. I never wanted kids. In the dream I follow her around. She looked like me when I was a baby. I got to stop watching baby reels. It’s making want to have a baby.

I don’t know if I am going to do any Econ work today. I got brain fog. I was only able to drink one cup of coffee today. I am tired and have no energy. Tomorrow I need to get my meds. I might go to Starbucks and get a coffee or latte. I like their pumpkin cold foam cold brew. It’s tasty and not too sweet.

So cranky today

I was up in the middle of the night again. I got an email around 330am from some journal I follow. I wanted to kick my phone across the room. I listened to my sister leaving the house for work. I figure I try to get some sleep. Then my phone text message for my psych class went off and just continued. It was like 730am! I was so pissed. I put my phone on vibrate but by then the texts stopped of course.

I managed to go back to sleep only to dream about work and clearing the tube system as well as getting problem samples. Then I dreamt I was to go to the psych ER for something. I don’t even remember why it was being suggested to me. I woke up feeling aggravated. I heard the puppy go down the stairs so I knew there was going to be some potty mess out in the hall. She peed outside my sister’s bedroom. I was not happy.

I got up around 10 but I still wasn’t awake. I went back to sleep and then had my coffee. It was 1pm. I had to do some stuff for class. I did that. The professor sent me a message saying I put the collaborations thing in the wrong spot. So I moved it to where it was supposed to be. For some reason I cannot get google docs to that folder. I can get the drive there but not the document. I am frustrated with the whole thing. I just put what I wanted to do on the document someone created.

I am hungry even though the coffee upset my stomach. I think I am going to make a grilled cheese. I have been craving one. I hate making them as I always burn one side. I suck at making them. I usually “cheat” by toasting the bread and then microwaving the cheese so it melts.

Reading and more reading

I fell asleep early last night and then woke up in the middle of the night again. I got up around 4 or 430. I read my psych and finished the chapter. It took me like two hours. I was done at 630 and I took my meds. I then tried to get back to sleep for a few hours. I managed to sleep for a bit then woke up around 1pm. I had a cup of coffee and some donuts. My sister made some rice but I didn’t have any. I wasn’t really hungry.

I went upstairs and got to work on my Econ. I read chap 6 and was like half way through when I just decided to take the test anyway. I answered the questions best I could. There was one question that was based off “class notes” but I wasn’t able to find where those notes were.

My niece texted me saying she was here and had pumpkin pie. I had finished the test and then went downstairs. The pie was more like a pudding with a crust. It was good though. My sister was making something but she wouldn’t tell me what she was making. It smelled good whatever it was. I had gone back upstairs to do my meds for the week. I put the naprosen in my night med box because I forgot to take it last night. My brother in law made pasta and sauce so I had some with some garlic bread. It was good. Now I am full. My stomach is bothering me and I have a headache. I hope the naprosen works. I am kind of dehydrated still. My urine is kind of dark. I don’t have that many gatorades left. I think I have just one 28 oz and a few 20 oz left. I have to go through my cart at Peapod because it’s over $300 and the money I was hoping to get didn’t come through. There is no way I can afford a $300 grocery bill. I think what I am going to do is have the drinks delivered and then go to a cheaper grocery store to get the other stuff I need.

I have one more thing to submit for psych and a bunch of readings to do. I don’t even know what exactly I am supposed to submit. I read the responses and it just made me more confused. I got to wait till my head feels a little better before I try and attempt it. It’s a P/F so I don’t need to submit that much for it.

I wanted to shower today but never got around to it. I will try tomorrow. I like it when no one is home.