midnightdemons7

Up all night again

I fell asleep after the baseball game only to wake up around 2am to pee and sneeze my head off. I took an allegra. I couldn’t go back to sleep because the sneezing woke me up so I got out my new psych history textbook and read. I couldn’t put it down. It was so interesting. I am going to love this class. Least I hope I will. I have no idea what the professor is like as I never had her before but she is a good professor from what I heard from other students.

I had a hard time getting up once I fell back to sleep, which was difficult because my sister got up and I guess the puppy peed again upstairs. That is her new thing now. I waited till my sister left before going back to sleep. Then I woke up again to pee. I took my meds. I had some serious upset stomach during the night. I took some Mylanta. I asked the nurse if it was normal and it is. I am trying not to eat things that are heavy that will hurt my stomach. The mac and cheese was so good but it caused an upset. I just had a turkey sandwich for dinner and some iced tea.

I have been experiencing some UTI symptoms today. I must have peed like ten times since I got up. Each time was just a little bit of pee but it hurt so bad. I have been drinking water as I am low on my powerades. I am so tired. I was watching the puppy until my bitchy sister came home and then I went up to my room. She was in a mood again. I don’t know why she expects the house to be spotless whenever she comes home. People live here. There is going to be stuff out and not put away. That is how a house is run. Fuck.

My allergies are so bad today. The pollen count is high. I was sneezing in my room and in the kitchen. I need to get more tissues before I run out. I forgot to get them on my last grocery order. I managed to shave and brush my teeth today. The only thing I hate about having a goatee is that around my neck I get ingrown hairs and they are painful. They also last a long time. I try to leave them alone. I got some benzoil peroxide to put on them. I am going to try and see if that makes it go away.

Today is just a WTF day

I woke up to pee around 9 and took my meds but forgot to clear it on my med alarm. It went off an hour later and I was pissed. I had a hard time sleeping last night. Again, I couldn’t get comfortable and for some reason, I kept on laying on my back with my leg up which only made my back hurt after a while. I slept for a few more hours and then got up around noon. I had some coffee but didn’t eat anything as I wasn’t hungry.

My DMH worker called and we talked for a bit. I accidently hung up on her near the end of our talk. I keep forgetting the power button doesn’t lock my phone when I am on a call. It ends the call. I had another cup of coffee while I was on the phone with her. I needed it.

The felon is sending the National Guard into DC because of “crime”. I am just done with his style of governing. And it is only the first year. He already wrecked the country and it is only going to get worse. His meeting with Putin is a huge mistake and I can already see Putin laugh at him.

I just am tired today and can’t get the song “Ordinary” out of my head. My allergies have been out of control today. It is medium high today. I keep sneezing my head off. I don’t know what I am going to have to eat. I am getting hungry. My niece is making mac and cheese. I might have some of that. She makes it so yummy. I got to go to the grocery store and pick up some salad kits. I have been craving a Caesar salad.

I couldn’t get comfortable to sleep last night. I was up most of the night but was able to get up before my appt and have a cup of coffee. The therapist did a bunch of questionnaires and no surprise, I have depression. We talked a little bit about stuff but didn’t get into a whole lot. I really like her. Now I got to figure out how to tell my current therapist bye.

I ended up sleeping most of the afternoon. I kept an eye on puppy. She crapped in the living room but nowhere else. I am making potatoes and spanikopita. That is what I want to eat. I mostly just had cake and coffee this morning.

I took some old mail off my bed. I didn’t have much success clearing it today. Maybe tomorrow. I see my DMH worker. But I won’t be going in. Too hot.

I need to shave my head and face. I got a goatee going on. Also need to brush my teeth. Sox are playing a late game tonight. They are in Houston.

Lazy day

My alarm went off when I was in the middle of a dream and I didn’t want to get up or shut it off. I reluctantly did so I didn’t hear the noise anymore. I stayed in bed and went back to sleep. I stayed in bed until 1 or so. I took my meds and went to see the puppy. She was in the crate and she came out to see me while I went to the bathroom. I had some coffee. It was hot in the kitchen and even hotter when I opened the back door for some air. I decided to make the blueberry lemon cake. I misjudged the bowl I used so it kind of overflowed when I poured the soda in the cake mix. And the kitchen got really hot. I was sweating so much. I took off my shirt. I so need to shower.

I tried to use the bathroom after the cake was done. I wanted to shave and brush my teeth but I didn’t have the energy. I needed to cool off. My niece made mac and cheese so I had that for lunch. My stomach didn’t hurt after I had the coffee or food. I am taking that as a good sign.

I just set my alarms for tomorrow so that I am awake for my appt with the new therapist. I like that I can either roll out of bed or not. I listened to the game until it ended in the 10^th inning. We lost 5-4. I kind of dozed between a few innings. They kept on talking about shit so it was hard to know where they were in the game. I am listening to my Brett Young Pandora station. It has so good music. I sing along to most of the songs. They are all my favorites. It’s mostly male artists on the station, with occasionally playing Lady A.

UGH I don’t want to shower but I stinkkk. I know I will probably feel better once I get all this sweat off me. It is going to be in the mid to high 90s the next few days. Supposed to be 97 on Wed and I have a dentist appt. I have a lot of appts this week. I am not going into Boston to see my DMH worker on Tues. It is just too hot. I have therapy with my current therapist Thurs. It might be the last time if I like the new one. I think I am just going to shower and then tomorrow after my appt, I will shave.