midnightdemons7

Brain fried

My med alarm went off and I went back to sleep. I woke up ten minutes before my therapy appt. I logged on quickly. It was a good meeting. I like her. We will be meeting weekly, which I like. She wants to talk with my DMH worker so I have to sign a release for both parties.

I went downstairs after therapy to have coffee and something to eat. It hasn’t bothered my stomach yet. I had two cups of coffee. My therapist thinks I should talk to a nutritionist. I told her I would think about it. My pcp is increasing the dose of the weight loss drug and I am to check back in a month.

I played with the puppy most of the day. She was loving me. Kept kissing my hand and licking my face. I layed down next to her and she cuddled with me. It didn’t last too long. She wanted to go on the porch so I let her out. I stayed out with her for a bit. Then she wanted to go in. She didn’t do any potty business today, I am grateful for that.

I need to shave and brush my teeth. I haven’t done it yet. I will when I go to the bathroom next. I am thirsty today for some reason. Been drinking water. I am tired but it is too late to take a nap. I never got up early to go to the bread store. I want some scali bread so I can make a salami sandwich.

Tomorrow I am going to go to Starbucks and read my textbook to finish the chapter. I will also try and clear my bed. I have been so overwhelmed because I don’t know where to put the stuff. I keep piling the clothes on top and now I have a huge mountain in one corner of my room. I have to find my hand soap that I bought because my sister is out and she is using some kind of vanilla and I don’t like it. I also have no idea what I am going to do with my old laptop or where to put it. There are still stuff on it I may need so still want it around.

TAYLOR IS ENGAGED!!!

Finally happened! She said yes!!! Love Story on repeat today! I am so fucking happy!!

So I have been in a somewhat good mood since finding out Taylor is engaged. I literally lost my shit and had to listen to Love Story a million times again. I am absolutely crazy right now. Seeing them together on the podcast last week was so sweet the way they were together. I couldn’t be happier for her.

I have had a stomach ache all day. I had the uncrustables, which was so damn good. Then after my second cup of coffee, my stomach freaked out and has been hurting ever since. I tried to eat some rice, plain, no salt or butter, but only had a few bites. I drank a big glass of iced tea. I have been trying to stay hydrated so I don’t get headaches as well.

I was watching the puppy. I need to get advice on how to potty train her because she keeps peeing and pooping in the kitchen. There was dried pee on the floor under the table today and I was wondering where the smell was coming from. I was so mad because she peed in multiple places. And she shit. She hid from me when I came downstairs. I thought she wasn’t home as I saw the crate and bed empty. She was under the bed. Ugh.

I talked with my DMH case worker today. We mostly talked about the puppy and the semester starting next week. I am wondering why I am still talking to her because we don’t get anything accomplished and she isn’t a therapist. I just update her on things in my life. I told her I have a new therapist starting tomorrow. I am kind of nervous about it. Hopefully it settles down the more I see her and get to know her. It is only our second meeting. Hoping also that she doesn’t do more questionnaires.

I signed up for a CAMS-care webinar that focuses on contemporary suicidology. Will be interesting. Dr. Jobes is leading the chat so I had to attend. I love him so much. I can’t wait till the semester starts. I need to finish the chapter in the psych history book I started reading. Think I will go to Starbucks on Thurs and read for an hour. It should take me that long to finish it. It is long reading. I got to get my Microeconomics book in its folder. Both of my classes have apps with it that I had to buy for the semester. I hope this class isn’t intensive. I am already planning on the 400 level psych class to be.

Up early again

I woke up around 6am and couldn’t go back to sleep. I waited for my sister to leave and then I assessed the damaged caused by a water gallon breaking. Half a gallon leaked on to my clothes and they were all wet. I had to wash them because some of them smelled. I had a good armful of clothes. I brought them downstairs and the puppy wanted attention. There was stuff in the washer so I had to take that out but the puppy was in the way so I couldn’t put my clothes down. She was so cute today even though she took a dump right next to me in the kitchen. I freaked on her as I saw it. She gave absolutely no indication she had to poop. Little bugger.

I just saw the highlights of Mike Lowell in the 2007 Sox World Series games. I started crying. It just makes me so happy. That was the DVD that I cried the entire thing. I swear I used up a box of tissues. That year was phenomenal. I don’t think the Sox can make it that far this year. They have been up and down the past few games. But we got three games against the Skankees so that was good.

I got three calls today from my therapist’s office telling me of our appt on Wed. I have no idea if it was a recording or what but, damn. Why you calling me three times leaving me the same messages?? And they are just going to send me an email the day of with the link for the appt. Tomorrow I meet with my DMH worker. I don’t know if I am going to go into Boston or not. I will decide tomorrow. My legs were hurting me as I walked a little bit today just around the square to get my meds. I was able to get my migraine med today rather than tomorrow. I took it and it hurt like a bitch. I was expecting some sting but it hurt more than it usually does. I used it in my left leg rather than right. I got to use the right for the weight loss med on Friday. I have been alternating the sites to the different areas. So far, it doesn’t hurt. I just get stomach upset. I have been constipated the last few days. If I don’t go today, I might have to take some miralax.

There was construction this morning and afternoon. I didn’t think I would be able to go out as they had two huge mounds of dirt in front of my house. They were digging on the street and sidewalk. I ended up taking a Lyft to the Square. I didn’t have a caffeinated drink just a refresher. Then I got my meds and one of the rice bowls I like. It seems I can only get it at the pharmacy. I haven’t been able to get it in the grocery store though the Asian market that just opened might have it as I think it is Japanese company that makes it. It is so good. They also had a new Uncrustables with chocolate and hazelnut. I had to try it. I will have it tomorrow morning with my coffee.