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Today is just a WTF day

I woke up to pee around 9 and took my meds but forgot to clear it on my med alarm. It went off an hour later and I was pissed. I had a hard time sleeping last night. Again, I couldn’t get comfortable and for some reason, I kept on laying on my back with my leg up which only made my back hurt after a while. I slept for a few more hours and then got up around noon. I had some coffee but didn’t eat anything as I wasn’t hungry.

My DMH worker called and we talked for a bit. I accidently hung up on her near the end of our talk. I keep forgetting the power button doesn’t lock my phone when I am on a call. It ends the call. I had another cup of coffee while I was on the phone with her. I needed it.

The felon is sending the National Guard into DC because of “crime”. I am just done with his style of governing. And it is only the first year. He already wrecked the country and it is only going to get worse. His meeting with Putin is a huge mistake and I can already see Putin laugh at him.

I just am tired today and can’t get the song “Ordinary” out of my head. My allergies have been out of control today. It is medium high today. I keep sneezing my head off. I don’t know what I am going to have to eat. I am getting hungry. My niece is making mac and cheese. I might have some of that. She makes it so yummy. I got to go to the grocery store and pick up some salad kits. I have been craving a Caesar salad.

I couldn’t get comfortable to sleep last night. I was up most of the night but was able to get up before my appt and have a cup of coffee. The therapist did a bunch of questionnaires and no surprise, I have depression. We talked a little bit about stuff but didn’t get into a whole lot. I really like her. Now I got to figure out how to tell my current therapist bye.

I ended up sleeping most of the afternoon. I kept an eye on puppy. She crapped in the living room but nowhere else. I am making potatoes and spanikopita. That is what I want to eat. I mostly just had cake and coffee this morning.

I took some old mail off my bed. I didn’t have much success clearing it today. Maybe tomorrow. I see my DMH worker. But I won’t be going in. Too hot.

I need to shave my head and face. I got a goatee going on. Also need to brush my teeth. Sox are playing a late game tonight. They are in Houston.

Lazy day

My alarm went off when I was in the middle of a dream and I didn’t want to get up or shut it off. I reluctantly did so I didn’t hear the noise anymore. I stayed in bed and went back to sleep. I stayed in bed until 1 or so. I took my meds and went to see the puppy. She was in the crate and she came out to see me while I went to the bathroom. I had some coffee. It was hot in the kitchen and even hotter when I opened the back door for some air. I decided to make the blueberry lemon cake. I misjudged the bowl I used so it kind of overflowed when I poured the soda in the cake mix. And the kitchen got really hot. I was sweating so much. I took off my shirt. I so need to shower.

I tried to use the bathroom after the cake was done. I wanted to shave and brush my teeth but I didn’t have the energy. I needed to cool off. My niece made mac and cheese so I had that for lunch. My stomach didn’t hurt after I had the coffee or food. I am taking that as a good sign.

I just set my alarms for tomorrow so that I am awake for my appt with the new therapist. I like that I can either roll out of bed or not. I listened to the game until it ended in the 10^th inning. We lost 5-4. I kind of dozed between a few innings. They kept on talking about shit so it was hard to know where they were in the game. I am listening to my Brett Young Pandora station. It has so good music. I sing along to most of the songs. They are all my favorites. It’s mostly male artists on the station, with occasionally playing Lady A.

UGH I don’t want to shower but I stinkkk. I know I will probably feel better once I get all this sweat off me. It is going to be in the mid to high 90s the next few days. Supposed to be 97 on Wed and I have a dentist appt. I have a lot of appts this week. I am not going into Boston to see my DMH worker on Tues. It is just too hot. I have therapy with my current therapist Thurs. It might be the last time if I like the new one. I think I am just going to shower and then tomorrow after my appt, I will shave.

Saturday Blog 09082025

Other than clearing my recycle off my bed today, I have done nothing. I had two cups of coffee and a tuna sandwich. That upset my stomach for some reason. It finally went away around 7 so I could eat some dinner. I didn’t know what to have so I heated up some pancakes. I thought about making a cake but it was too late. I will try tomorrow as I need to use the blueberries before they go bad.

I had coffee with my sister. She was doing a million things. She was cooking and she washed her daughter’s hair. She dyed it so need to get the excess out. She make some artichoke bottoms that were nasty. Will never have them again. She gave me some zucchini so I will make it tomorrow. I might, if I have breadcrumbs, make the it with egg and breadcrumbs. I love it like that.

I wanted to shower today but I had no energy. I slept ok last night but it was hard getting up this morning. I didn’t get up till after 12. I have been playing my game all day. I rested while my stomach was upset. The puppy has been out with my niece all day. I miss her.

I got a voicemail from the new therapy place for my Monday appt. The website they gave me was wrong but I figured it out. I got to get up early. I am hoping I can have at least one cup of coffee before the appt so my brain is somewhat awake. I bought the single “Ordinary” by Alex Warren. Luke Combs had him on his show in Chicago and omg I fell in love with this song. I also bought Mary Chapin Carpenter’s new album and I absolutely love it. I think it is her best work in years. It makes me want to see her all the more. I think I am going to say fuck it and get tickets with my next check. I haven’t seen her in a while. She comes to Boston almost every year. Some times she goes to the Cape but I can’t see her then because I don’t have a car. I really love her. She is the only artist I have seen more than three times. I think I have seen her like six times or more. Sugarland comes in second. I’ve seen them four times.