midnightdemons7

Memorial Day 2025

I’ve purposely stayed off of Bluesky today because I don’t want to read what the felon has said about today. He already went off about the Boss, Bruce Springsteen. After the disrespectful way he treated the West Point cadets, I don’t care what he has to say anymore.

I was up most of the night. I had a brief sleep and then woke up to pee and that was it. I couldn’t go back to sleep to save my life. I finally did around maybe 8 and slept till 230pm. I had something to eat and I wanted coffee. My sister made some rice and beans and my other sister made pasta salad and some pork on the grill. It was good. I think I am dehydrated as my urine is dark. I have been trying to drink more today. I drank a liter of water during the night while I was up.

Tomorrow I need to go to the Square and pick up my meds and library book. I hope my check is in my account first thing in the morning and I don’t have to wait all day for it like I have in the past. It should be deposited in the morning because it was supposed to be in my account Saturday. I am still pissed it wasn’t.

My allergies are set off today. Part of the reason I couldn’t go back to sleep was I kept getting sneeze attacks. I still got the sniffles and a glob of shit at the back of my throat. I just took some Flonase so hopefully that will help.

Wired for sound

I didn’t want to get up today. I had woken up to pee but didn’t get up right away. I finally did around 0730. When I came back to my room, I took my meds and tried to go back to sleep. My sister texted me about 1115 for coffee and then I got up. I made a cup and went downstairs. We talked for a bit. Then she had to get ready for lunch with my aunt so I went back upstairs.

I had another cup of coffee and then I took a shower. No one was home so I just wrapped the towel around me and went to my room. I didn’t want to do anything but I had dinner plans with my friend. I had to leave close to when the bus got here and because it is Sunday, I had to catch it or wait an hour for the next one. I timed it perfectly.

Dinner was very good. I had a latte and it was so strong. I forget that restaurants don’t make it like Starbucks. I am now wired for sound. My friend drove me home as I knew the bus wasn’t going to come for a while and I didn’t want to wait an hour.

I did my meds when I came home. I am out of my stomach pill but it doesn’t matter as I will be in the hospital. I am also out of my blood pressure pill. I will get them on Tues. It was close to my med time so I took my night meds. I am kind of tired despite the espresso waking my brain up. I don’t think I can sleep though. I got such a headache. This is day fucking five. I wore my mask when I was with my friend because I am not feeling great. I don’t know why I feel like shit. I don’t know if it is the depression or something else. I got one more day of taking this antibiotic so maybe that is why I feel so crummy. I hope it’s not because my liver function tests are a little high for some reason. I have stopped taking the supplement mostly because I will be in the hospital this week. I am still taking magnesium so I don’t get cramps.

I was up in the middle of the night. I tried going back to sleep but couldn’t until dawn. I played my game. I didn’t feel like reading.

I finally got up around 11 and made something to eat. I was hungry during the night but didn’t want to get up and make something. I had one cup of coffee because I didn’t have enough half and half. I didn’t feel like leaving the house today.

Tomorrow I am meeting my friend and her kids. We are going to a French place in the next town over from me. I haven’t seen them in a long time. I’ve missed them so much.

I got a migraine forming. I still feel like shit. Just my head feels weird. I was getting those zaps in my head as I was trying to go back to sleep. I am wicked tired. I have decided to go in the hosp Wed morning. I think I’ll take a cab so I don’t have to struggle with my bags. I packed on for clothes. I just got to do my toiletry bag and then some notebooks and reading stuff. I would bring my Kindle but it’s dead. It’s got a few books on it that I was to read. I got to get a tablet or a new Kindle to replace it.

My sister is making her fig and procutto thing. I love it. I hope I can have some. My sister washed the lining of the shower curtain and I tried to hang it back up as I need to shower but I was too short. I couldn’t reach the hooks. My niece had to do it.

I sent a message to my psychiatrist saying I was going in. He just messaged me back. I can text my therapist Thursday when she is back in the office. Depending where I go, I might not have access to my phone, at least for the 1st 24 hrs. I’ve never gone in on a Wed so I don’t know what the wait will be like and this is a holiday weekend so discharges might be in my favor. We’ll see.