Sunday blog 12112023
I’ve had a boring day. I did some stuff. I showered and shaved. My back didn’t like me standing for some reason. It was fine until I was in the bathroom and it cramped up on me. I had to sit after I brushed my teeth and again after I shaved. I had to sit a few times in the shower. I let the hot water on my back but it didn’t do much. I was not happy.
I had one cup of coffee when I got up. I had a crappy sleep, again. I had this dream I was at work and every time I wanted to go to lunch something came up. It was annoying. I of course woke up with a damn headache. My new migraine med isn’t going to be ready until Tues, I hope. I did my meds for the week. The pharmacy texted me asking if I wanted one of my blood pressure meds refilled and I don’t need it so I didn’t. I have enough for a few weeks. I am starting the increased dose of my antidepressant tonight. I hope it doesn’t cause me to be jittery.
I am making a pot pie for supper. It should be ready in an hour or so. I have to make zucchini tomorrow or it will go bad. I meant to make it today but I just remembered about it. I plan on roasting it. I don’t have the patience to do the breadcrumb and egg. I haven’t made a single zucchini bread with all the zucchini my sister pulled from her garden. I have no idea what my sister did with my recipes. I have to ask her.
I have therapy tomorrow. I don’t know if I am going to be a bitch and cancel on her or not. She really upset me at the last session. We have been talking about my suicidality for the past week, after she invited me to open up and trust her and then she hits me with a I need a break from it. Sorry, it has been a part of my life for fucking 40 years, I can’t break from it. I mean, I do read things that aren’t always about it. I told her what I was reading, the Education of Henry Adams, and she made fun of me. I always seem to be in the wrong with her. Then when I get pissed off, I am angry all the time. UGH. I usually shut down and don’t speak.
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