Saturday Blog 13012024

Saturday Blog 13012024

I took the trazodone last night. I started reading and within half an hour, I had to call it a night. I had a good sleep but I still woke up a few times during the night. My med alarm went off and I couldn’t get up to take my meds right away. I did about an hour and a half later. Then I went back to sleep for a couple of hours. I got up around 1pm. My phone needed an update so after my first cup of coffee, I installed it. I made a burger and another cup of coffee. The burger was so damn yummy. I plan on making another burger in about an hour. I have to use the meat before it goes bad.

I went up to my room as I planned on taking a shower. As I was ready to head to the bathroom, my aunt called me. We talked for a few minutes. I told her I was going back to college to finish my degree. She was happy for me. I have been wanting to talk to her as it has been a while but she reminds me so much of my mother that I had a hard time initiating the call. I am glad she called me.

I shaved and showered. I got razor burn on my head so showering was painful. I had to sit to wash up as my back was cramping up. For some reason my legs are hurting today. Soon after I came back to my room, it downpoured. We had so much rain this week. I rather have rain than snow though. I noticed while I was drying off that my left nipple looks like it fell off. It is smaller than the right one. Nothing I can do about it. My surgeon’s office won’t be open till Tuesday.

I feel better now that I showered. I was feeling like shit. I don’t know if I am getting a headache or not. I need to finish the chapter I started last night. Then I can move on to the other book in my Anthro class. If I finish the book tonight, I will start the other book tomorrow. I hope I don’t have to get the 3^rd edition of my psych class book. I kept the shrinkwrap on it because if I do, I will return it. Or sell it.

I have been feeling sad and depressed on and off all day. I am in pain. My ribs are hurting me for whatever reason. I am missing my mother. It is so hard to not think about her. When I am not thinking about her, I am dreaming about her. Grief is so complicated. I have been listening to music to cope. It really has helped. I took a Robaxin for my ribs. It helps but I got to take it around the clock for a couple of days for it to be effective.