feeling rough

Feeling rough

I woke up feeling okay today but it took forever for me to get going. I had a cup of coffee and my biscuits. I didn’t want another cup. I was hungry but I didn’t feel like making anything. Around 1ish I started feeling lightheaded. BP was normal. I pushed myself to get out of the house. It was cold and rainy so not an ideal day to really want to be out. By the time I got to the bus stop, I was sweating and thirsty. I didn’t feel like going to the liquor store for a water as I didn’t have cash on me. I just waited until I got to the pharmacy. The lightheadedness got worse. I tried snoozing on the bus but I was overstimulated. I couldn’t keep my mind focused and I just wanted to be home.

I got my meds and then had to wait fifteen minutes for the next bus. I sat in the waiting area and it didn’t help. I just felt really crappy. I thought about calling an ambulance and going to the hospital. I might go tomorrow if I still feel crappy. I am not drinking a lot of fluid and even though I got a bottle of water, I only drank maybe 200 mls after spilling it on myself. The bottle was a cheap recycle so just grabbing it to hold it squeeze out water. I was not happy.

I came home and reheated the stuffing I made the other day. It was all I wanted. I have about a hundred bucks left and $80 has to go to the new migraine med. I spent $40 just for my blood pressure meds. The Latuda went up five bucks. Sucks having to pay for my meds again.

I just want to read my psych book today. But my brain isn’t cooperating. I just want to lie down for a bit. I sent my pcp a message saying I might go to the ED if I am not feeling better by tomorrow. Maybe a bag of fluid is all I need. I have been keeping track of my urination as that has been hard, too. The other day I peed twice despite drinking a lot of water, fifteen hours between voids. I thought I would have to go to the ED. I hate this shit.