snow day in Boston

Snow day in Boston

They called a snow day today so school was closed. There wasn’t much snow however as the storm moved south. The exam we were to take on Thurs got pushed to next week and I am glad because chapter 3 has a shit ton of information. I am still trying to process it. I am only about half way through the chapter. I had to take a break to eat something. I have post nasal drip today and it is irritating my throat so bad. I hope those kids that were coughing on the train last week didn’t give me their germs. I have been sneezing since I got up this morning. I am not having a good day.

I got in touch with my editor. She plans on doing what I want her to do so I am happy. I just need to figure out how to pay her with my next pay period. I am basically done writing but just need to tweak what I wrote on one thing and write an acknowledgement page which I am having trouble with.

I had another sneeze attack. Wish I knew what was making me sneeze so much. I am tired. I slept pretty ok. I woke up around 2 to pee and had a hard time getting back to sleep. I wrote in my journal for a bit. I keep thinking about my plan. I’m not really suicidal but I just don’t want to be here anymore. I am trying to live again but it is hard. I wish I didn’t feel so tired all the time. No matter how much sleep I get, I still feel tired. I have about a couple of hours when I first wake up that I am able to do stuff and then my energy runs out and I have to push to continue. By 5pm, I am struggling to not take a nap or lie down. It is worse on days I go out. Then I really don’t want to do anything but take my meds and go to sleep, not caring if it is before 8pm. I wish I knew how many hours I was sleeping but it sometimes takes up to an hour to get to sleep once I lay down. I sometimes wake up but don’t look at the clock so I don’t really know how long I have been sleeping. I will toss and turn and most times, wake up sweating.

Tomorrow is my sister’s wedding anniversary. I don’t know if she has plans or not. I might go out to get one of my meds and go to Starbucks for a latte. I think the shuttle buses will stop running Thurs but I am not sure. I will go the other way to my class, just in case. I can stop at the Starbucks that is in between the stations.