Month: April 2024

Fatigue sucks

I have been up for only a couple of hours. I had two cups of coffee, some breakfast and then I replaced my laptop battery. I came back to my room and I need a fucking nap. I am so fricken tired. I hate it. I wish I could go take a nap but I got stuff to do. I wanted to work on my book but I am not sure how to do it exactly. I don’t want to be flipping through two documents. Sometimes I see the benefit of having two screens.

I slept ok last night despite waking up at 11pm and not really going back to sleep until like 2am. I stayed up till the end of the game. We lost. I finished chapter 7 in my psych book. I hope to start chapter 8 today. Sox are playing in the afternoon and I am so glad. And then they are in town for Opening Day at Fenway. I want to go to a game this year but not this month as the weather is still fricken cold. I might go in June before the weather gets hot. I don’t think we are going to have a spring. I think we are going to go from winter to summer like usual. It’s supposed to be in the 60s later this week. We’ll see. I don’t remember if it will be cloudy or not. I will have to check.

I have therapy tomorrow. I plan on sharing the free association thing I wrote last week. It isn’t long. I got an email from the Anthro prof. He added content and said he would be grading the obs assignment in the next few days. And I should get the exam 2 grades sometime this week. I hope so because I need to make a decision about whether or not to change my status to P/F or withdraw from course.

I have a busy week. I need to reschedule my surgeon appointment as my psych professor moved the quiz to Thurs. Wed I have an eye exam. My left eye has been bothering me for a while and gets easily irritated. I am hoping to get new glasses. Last year, I only paid $65 for a new pair, with insurance and transition lenses. I don’t know if class is going to be in person or zoom for Tues. I haven’t received notifications on it yet. I need to pick up the stuff I ordered at the bookstore. I got some Tshirts and a new hat.

Saturday Blog 06042024

I never read any of my psych today. I was up in the middle of the night, again, and it is getting so old. I read for a little bit. My groceries came and I put them away and then I went to the square without my book and notebook to get my haircut. I also picked up my meds. Then I came home and I decided to have ice cream for dinner because I couldn’t fucking decide on what to make. I have too many choices. I wasn’t really hungry.

I feel exhausted and I am going to try and stay up till at least 10pm tonight so that I can get some sleep. I have a fucking headache again. Sox are playing at 2130 again. I hate west coast games. Just this weekend and then they are home. Then the games will be at 7 which will be much better. I am so fricken clueless as to what day it is. I am so out of it. So much for looking at my book today. I will try tomorrow.

I am feeling anxious and have palpitations. I thought my heart was racing but the pulse ox says my HR is 95. It is fast but not super fast. I still have tightness/nerve pain in my chest. I have to reschedule the appointment with the surgeon as my psych quiz got moved to Thurs.

I got my battery for my laptop that I hope solves some of the power issues I have been having. I am going to change it tomorrow. Wish me luck that I don’t break anything.

I’m going to bed soon. I feel like crap with this headache. I am also grumpy as fuck. Tomorrow I start me new dose of my blood pressure med. Hope it works. I wish I could cry. I am so damn tearful. I am just so sad.