Saturday Blog 08062024
I’ve been really depressed today. It was so hard to get out of bed. I woke up around 6 thinking it was around 7 because I didn’t have my glasses on. I took my meds and went back to sleep for a few hours. I finished the library book I borrowed at like 3am. It was so good I couldn’t put it down. I got an email saying the book I had on hold is in. I was going to pick it up today but just couldn’t get going. I needed to take a shower and I think I will around 7 tonight. I managed to shave my head and face. I got a goatee going on right now. I brushed my teeth. I just need to find some energy to shower.
I made asparagus and eggs for breakfast. It didn’t come out the way I wanted it to. I don’t know why. It was also bland because I didn’t use any salt and my sister didn’t put any salt on the asparagus. I ate it anyway. I was still hungry. I didn’t eat right away. I waited a couple of hours and then I made some pasta salad. My sister called me for a burger and I couldn’t say no. Now I am wicked full. I took the Latuda when I got back to my room.
Sox are playing right now and it has been a pitcher’s duel so far. Sox have yet to have a hit, though they have been on base but haven’t scored. Last night they lost.
I feel so down, all I want to do is stay in bed. While I was making the pasta, I loaded the dishwasher. My back flared up. I had to sit down to rest it. I had a coffee. It doesn’t do anything for me anymore but I like the taste. I also find it soothing to drink something hot. I could make a cup of tea but I rather have coffee. I need to get more half and half. I think I will get some Tues when my SNAP comes in.
Last night my foot flared again for the third night in a row. It was bad as my ankle felt like it was being cut open. I took some pain meds and gaba. I have been stressed about it. It seems fine during the day but at night, it flares up. It was so bad the other night I couldn’t sleep, even after taking meds for it. I haven’t done anything to cause a flare but I think the weather is the reason as it has been fluctuating with warm weather and rain.
I am tired. I don’t think I am going to shower today. I smell as it has been a few days since I last took a shower and I have been sweating. I wish I could just jump in and out but with my back, it just takes longer. Sox are losing to a 16-48 team. Unfucking real. They get me so damn mad. I will have time to read tonight, once the game is over. Not sure what I will read but I think it will be the gender book.
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