Saturday Blog 29062024
I woke up around 1am last night. It took me a long while to get back to sleep. I finished No Right To An Honest Living. It was so well written but highlighted how racism is still prevalent in Boston since before Civil War times. The earned low wages just like they do today and if a white establishment hired Black people, it diminished business. The people often moved from job to job. No one had anything close to job security. Even doctors and lawyers had a hard time staying afloat because the people couldn’t pay the fees. It is really sad. And here it is almost 300 years later and discrimination still exists.
I wanted to go to return the library book today and pick up my remaining meds but I didn’t get up early enough. I just wanted to sleep. We celebrated my nephew today. Yesterday he turned thirty. I just got home and even though I didn’t do anything strenuous, I am exhausted from being out. We walked to the restaurant from my nephew’s place and it took its toll on me. I couldn’t walk back so rode with my aunt and sister. It was a nice outing even though I am exhausted.
I got a message response from my pdoc. It pissed me off because he didn’t offer much and then said “we’ll talk at our next appointment”. Bullshit. Never in all my time being a patient did we talk about things at the next appointment. I am so frustrated. He said that things might improve once I have a therapist again. Well, that isn’t going to be until sometime in Sept so what am I going to do until then?? Fuck.
I shaved my head and brushed my teeth. I wanted to shower but my sister took the curtain down and I didn’t feel like going to the 1st floor. I went out stinky and didn’t care. I am tired and I think I am going to read Moby Dick for a little while and then go to bed. I wanted to read something else last night but I have Moby on my kindle and it needed to be charged as it died. Starting July 1st I am going to read principles of psychology. It is a heavy book that will probably take me all summer to read.
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