take everything from the inside

Take everything from the inside

I slept in really late. I went to bed kind of late. I couldn’t sleep after the time being out and I read for a bit. My foot acted up and I took some gaba. It is hot today. My room is in the 80s and I just turned the AC on. Someone posted a pic of Linkin Park so I had to play the Meteora album. It is my top favorite of LP.

I am kind of in a depressed mood. My niece texted me that she was over the house when I just got up. I was having my first cup of coffee. I went downstairs and my sister had made some food. I had some and then had to go upstairs because her kitchen was so hot. I came upstairs and my room was hotter. It was 82/27 degrees and I put on the AC. It is 88/31 degrees outside. Right now the temp in my room is 78 so it is getting there. I get grumpy in the heat. But I don’t know why I feel so depressed. Nothing happened. I miss my mother so maybe some of it is grief. My sister is cleaning the bathroom and doing it slowly. Pisses  me off because it takes her all fucking day. I think I am going to take a shower at my sister’s on the 1^st floor. Our shower is dismantled right now. I fricken stink and I don’t like it.

Last night I was trying to read Moby Dick. I had plugged in my Kindle but I didn’t realize the charger wasn’t in the wall until I went to use it. I wondered why it didn’t charge and I thought maybe it just died but it was because the charger wasn’t in the wall, thank god. My kindle is old. I bought it in 2016, I think. I keep getting messages from Amazon about the newer Kindles they have but I am happy with mine. I only use it for book reading. I looked up how many chapters there were in Moby Dick and there are 135. I am on chapter 28. I was on 25 but it was such a short chapter, I decided to read a couple more. They are short chapters, which I like. It is easy, mindless reading.

I got a message from my local library that will be buying my book!! I send a message asking them if a local author can do an event to spread word on my book. I also emailed the Boston public library the same thing. I am hoping as I am a former student of East Boston High it will give me some weight.

I’m wearing a hat, my favorite Sox hat. I just felt like wearing one indoors. I usually don’t because I get hot but I just felt like covering my head today. It has a day’s growth of hair. I am tempted to use my electric shaver to get it off but I don’t know if that will create hair dust. I need to do my meds shortly for the week. I am so tired and just want to go back to bed. Sox are winning so far. They lost their last two games with San Diego. They were complete blow outs. I was not happy. I told my pdoc they are unreliable. I had one game where they came back to win and I was high for the night. Then they lost the next few games. They had a brief streak going but now it is a losing streak. Though with a win today, it will break it up.