can’t sleep

Can’t sleep

I was resting but not really sleeping when my med alarm went off. I thought it was odd as it was like 11pm. Then I remember I had set it for the Robaxin and I was kicking myself as it woke me up. My CRPS foot has been flared up the past couple of hours. I took some pain meds and gaba. I also took some Benadryl for sleep. But my brain is refusing to shut down. I just started a new book that I got from the library and the first chapter is good. I am going to like this book.

A friend of mine that I knew from Twitter mentioned a syndrome where you think you are dead or think you have dead limbs. I researched it and found that I had this for a few weeks in 2022 when I was catatonic. It wasn’t until I was back on a therapeutic dose of Latuda that the delusions stopped. It is a rare syndrome so of course I would get it. It does happen to people who have delusions and are catatonic. I want to reach out to my psychiatrist about this but I don’t know what exactly to say.

I finally changed my sheets and I am so happy I was able to put them on on the first try. The last time it took a few tries to get it right. I am going to try and keep my bed clear this time so I can change my sheets better. I have just two sets and alternate between the two. I had a gray set but I have no idea where it went.

I started doing research for my paper and I am happy to see that one of the suicidologists I follow wrote a paper on the HPA axis and suicide. I was wondering if there was anyone in the field that looked at this that I knew. I didn’t tell my professor that I was an autodidact suicidologist. My brain wasn’t completely functioning as I was composing the email so I just said I had an interest in suicide. She hasn’t responded to the email.

I was reading the discussion paper for class this week. It’s on the socio-economic-status and brain thickness. I read a couple pages until I couldn’t concentrate anymore. Then I laid down to try and sleep. It is a lengthy paper that will take me some time to read. I thought these papers were going to be shorter than this.

For some reason, when I last used my electric razor, it caused skin irritation. Now I have a break out of zits on my neck and it is so painful. I hate it. I shaved today and it was ok until now. It’s wicked itchy. I might have to let the beard grow back in again. I can’t seem to keep the goatee look for long.