Bad dreams
I went to bed before 9pm last night as I was tired. I slept for a few hours and dreamt of my mother. We had gotten into some sort of argument and weren’t speaking to one another. I was feeling really angry in the dream. She was talking on the phone about my sister babysitting my cousin’s kids. She then came to my room and placed something on my nightstand. I was pretending to be asleep but I was furious. I looked over at the nightstand to see what she left and then I woke up. I felt so disturbed. I was up for the next few hours. I don’t think I fell asleep until around 5. I had woken up around 2. I tried writing and reading but nothing seemed to help me get back to sleep. I woke up from another weird dream and I had to pee. I took my meds and went back to sleep.
My cousin called me at noon and I reluctantly got up. My friend’s appointment got moved so I wasn’t going to be able to see her today. I just wanted to stay in bed. I needed coffee. I got dressed as my cousin was going to take me to the grocery store. I wanted to get some turkey and more half and half. I bought a few snacks. They have Reese’s cupcakes that are so good. I was listening to someone you loved all day. I called my aunt who told me they were having a get together at a Chinese food restaurant on Monday and she wanted me to come. I said ok. I will have to find out the time from my sister.
I shaved after I had coffee. I want to shower and still might before bed. I am still clearing off my bed. I am getting closer. I just need to move my “office” stuff off. It’s mostly books. I feel so depressed today. I reached out to my DMH worker. I haven’t gotten a response yet. I just want to sleep.
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