class and stuff

Class and stuff

I didn’t want to leave the house today. I was so tired because I was up a few hours in the middle of the night, again. I got to stop going to bed around 830/9pm. I keep waking up around midnight/1am and then I am up for a few hours each time. Sometimes I can go back to sleep but sometimes I can’t and then I am up the entire day. Luckily, I fell back to sleep, though I don’t remember the time. Maybe 4 or 5am.

I left the house a little later than I usually leave and it cost me because the trains were slow and at one point had a delay. I got to class with 10 mins to spare. We discussed the book. I am supposed to read at least a third of the 2^nd book but it is boring as fucking hell. I did Italian when I came home, which was difficult as I still have no idea what the fuck I am doing. They had some pictures in the homework that I was supposed to describe what was going on. I had no words…I left the shit blank. Fuck that. Then I worked for like an hour on the next section trying to figure out the reflexive and if it was or not. It was annoying because I had to remember how to conjugate as well, which I did wrong the first few times. Ugh. I swear I am going to fail this class before it is over. I have no idea when the first exam is because it isn’t on the syllabus. There is NOTHING on the syllabus about the flow of class. Thursday I am supposed to get up early to go to the language lab so I can work on the reflexives. Damn thing is hard.

I came home and had to warm up before making something to eat. My niece made some food that smelled so good and it got my appetite up. I made burgers but there was no damn American cheese that was sliced normally. The last time I ordered it they sent me blocks of cheese instead of slices. I didn’t know this until my niece took it out so I can’t complain to them now as it has been a while. I am so mad that even the pepper jack cheese is in blocks instead of slices. Now I got to go and buy it even though I have it. Ugh I am so annoyed.

I got a lot of phone activity while I was in class. I got two phone calls. One was my therapist office which still deadnamed me. I flipped out and immediately texted my therapist. She said she was going to do something about it. I hope so because I am fucking sick of this bullshit. The second call was my RN at the trans clinic. I wanted to discuss diagnoses for the T and stuff but she didn’t know where that stands. My doc was in a meeting so she couldn’t ask. She said she will call me tomorrow and let me know. I felt better after I asked about their safety and stuff. I don’t want anything to happen there. They are good people. I was anxious after the phone call because we talked about what the felon is doing with the dept of education and not supporting trans students. I still haven’t received my financial aid reward for the semester. I hope it will be this week. Also the university sent out a message about Title IX. I am no longer protected against discrimination federally but I am protected by the state of Massachusetts. Weird how that is but at least it is something.

Therapist had texted me that she wasn’t feeling well and would be doing virtual tomorrow. I am glad I don’t have to leave the house tomorrow. I am so tired. We have lots to talk about. I just hope I am not too sleepy to talk.

I sent a message to my neuro about the headaches that have been happening daily and she increased my Depakote. I hope it helps because I like to do reading before bed and haven’t been able to because of the headaches. Hence why I have been going to bed around 8. I have a headache now and I am debating taking something for it. I don’t want to cause a rebound headache. Those suck.