foggy day

Foggy day

I had a good sleep. I was dreaming something weird when I forced myself awake or the alarm went off. I don’t remember now what it was but it was just creepy. I got up around 10 or 11. I felt like shit. I just realized I haven’t taken a muscle relaxer all day. My chest isn’t hurting so bad today. I just got brain fog and a headache.

I had some coffee and pancakes. I wanted to make an egg burrito but my stupid sister froze my tortillas again. I took them out of the freezer only for the ice to make them wet and soggy. I threw them away. The other package had a shit ton of ice in the bag so threw that away too. Such a waste. I am so damn bullshit. I am giving her less money when I get paid. Fuck her. My food got wasted on her bullshit.

I have had the hungry horrors all day. My last meal, which is what I really wanted all day, was eggs and cheese in a tortilla. My sister had some. They were small though, not my burrito sized ones. It was too small to make a burrito so it was more like a taco.

I did my Italian. I am waiting for my friend to correct it before I send it off. I haven’t done any reading. I got a headache so I doubt I will do any tonight. I am feeling pretty tired. I got to be up early tomorrow as I got an appointment in the morning. I had to cancel my therapist appointment to see one of my pcp’s colleagues about my chest pain. It’s a little better today. I haven’t needed to take anything for pain.

I got a call from my long term disability company. I spoke with them yesterday as their annual review. They now need my medical records. I wish they would make up their fucking minds. They got my records last year. I don’t know why they need them this year, too. But it’s freaking me out. I’m always scared that they will take my benefits away.

I got three appointments tomorrow. I hope that the medical appointment doesn’t take more than an hour as I need to be home by 2 and I am traveling by T. I don’t have appointments on Thurs but I have two on Friday. I still need to go to the Square to pick up my meds. I might do that on Thursday. I didn’t feel like going out today.