Wicked down kind of day
Even though I slept through the night, I still woke up to pee and then it was so hard to get up when I had to for therapy. I set my alarm but all they seem to do is make noise so I shut them off. I haven’t been getting up when they go off. I had virtual therapy with my therapist. It was ok. I can’t tell if she is worried about me or not but she wanted to support me and increase our sessions to twice a week. I see her at our regular time next week and then again on Friday. She talked most of the session. I didn’t feel like talking. I was feeling down and anxious. She wants me to use mindfulness more. I said I would but it is hard to practice it.
I wanted to shower today and I still might. One of these days I have to groom myself because the hair is just so long and I can’t get it short. I am gonna have to shave and that just takes time and energy. Plus I have to be careful.
I ordered a sub because I had to have something to eat and well, my stomach didn’t want food. Now it is hurting me. I should have just had coffee. I started doing my paper after therapy for English class. I still haven’t finished the book and am supposed to start a new book. I am so overwhelmed. I somehow got to write five pages before Monday. I want to do better on this paper. I still also need to do my Italian. I just want to lay in bed. I hate it when my depression is this bad.
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