stressed to the max

Stressed to the max

All week I have been working on my English paper and I finally finished it today and turned it in so it wouldn’t affect me anymore. Now I am having terrible anxiety because I need to start the new book, which I am behind on, as well as do my Italian. I have a quiz this week but I think I am going to do better on it because I understand it more. I am still freaking out about the oral exam I got to take next week. I got to come up with a story and memorize it so I can speak it.

I had therapy today and it went well. My father’s death anniversary is Friday. We talked about it today and it is more that I am sad that I didn’t have a father that I needed. Of course, I didn’t have a mother I needed either but oh well. You can’t pick your family as the saying goes. We also talked about how stressed I am about school. I am down to the last few weeks and everything seems crammed in.

I took a shower today and while drying off, I almost fell. Nobody was home so it wouldn’t have been good. I was glad I took one as I have been feeling crappy all week. I’ve been sweating and I stunk. I wanted to take a shower yesterday before my niece’s birthday party but I woke up at 230 and didn’t go back to sleep. I ended up taking a nap for a few hours and woke up just as the party started. There was no time to shower. I feel wicked depressed. But I managed to get out of bed this week. It has been so difficult because my sleep has been so terrible. I managed to sleep most of the night until I had to pee. I got up around 7 I think as my sister was leaving for work. I was supposed to see my therapist in person but I just couldn’t. I knew if I left the house, my paper wasn’t going to get done. I will try and see her next week. We have just been meeting virtually. I see her again on Friday.