I didn’t have therapy today because my therapist canceled for reasons unknown. She cancels at least twice a month. I don’t know how she keeps her job. It really pissed me off.
My email is in limbo because my account is short on funds and I can’t pay the subscription fee for more memory until Friday. I am so angry. Living on a fixed income sucks so bad. I forgot to put money on my t pass so had to borrow 10 bucks from my sister. I am so annoyed.
I went to make my chicken breast and it was gone. My niece made it. So I had no dinner. I am making roasted zucchini. I had some mac and cheese. I was so looking forward to the chicken. Fuck. My soda is gone.
I managed to brush my teeth and shave today. I still need to shower. I might do it before bed. I wrote out my Italian. Now I just got to memorize it. It has been difficult as my brain doesn’t want to work. My Italian friend was going to help me but I haven’t heard from her.
I sent a message to my psychiatrist. I might need a new therapist if these cancelations keep happening. I’m so tired. I just want to end things. What difference does it make if I have a therapist or not. I have another appt with my therapist Friday. If she doesn’t cancel.
I got a headache that I think is gonna turn into a migraine. I am so tired today. I slept good. Don’t know if I will sleep tonight as I am so worried about tomorrow. I still have Italian homework to do. But I’ll do it tomorrow after I get home from class.
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