behind in reading

Behind in reading

Day has been going ok so far. I had therapy and it went ok. We didn’t go into anything specific. I told her how stressful my paper was and how I wanted nothing to do with psychology after it. We talked about some classes I am thinking about for next semester. One is the biology course and the other is the gender course. I am also thinking of taking the semester off but I feel like I will be bored shitless if that happens. I need to talk to my advisor.

It was cold in my room so I put on a hoodie. Then my sister told me to fold the laundry and I got hot by bringing the clothes to my niece’s room. Most of the clothes were hers. I only had like six things. I showered yesterday and shaved. I need to buy more toothpaste. I signed up to get the Novavax vaccine for tomorrow so I will get it then if I remember. I also need to get B vitamins as I am out. My meds are ready so will do everything tomorrow.

I read the first few pages that I was supposed to. I was taking a mini break when my laptop went berserk. It started moving my mouse and scrolling the pages. I wasn’t even touching the laptop. It was so weird. That is all the reading so far that I have done. I will finish it later. I did all the stuff that needs to be turned in yesterday. I hope the professor doesn’t give us a lot of stuff this week. It’s a short week because of the holiday. I am not going to look at my grade of my paper until the last day of class. Three more weeks and it will be over. I have an exam the last week of class. The professor said it’s “easy” so it most likely will be hard. There will be a prep of some kind. I’m glad because my mind has been sieve lately. Nothing is being stored.

I don’t know why the fuck they need to stitch the strings of hoodies and sweats into the material. Used to be that you can pull it out but now you can’t. GRRR. Pisses me off. You got to cut it out. I hate the strings anyway. I never use them.

I am so damn tired. Puppy wasn’t around today and I was sad. I have been in a tearful mood since therapy. I don’t know why. I just feel so depressed. I was up during the night for a little bit. I couldn’t sleep. All the things of what I had to read kept me up. I didn’t get up till 11. Had two cups of coffee. I needed caffeine today. I feel like I could go to bed now. I just want to stay in bed. I don’t want to do anything anymore. I feel so numb to the pain. It’s like I am so jaded. My neck is so tense from all the stress. I love Thanksgiving but being around family stresses me out.