Grades are back!
Today has been a rough day. I didn’t sleep most of the night. I woke up around 1 and it was very difficult getting back to sleep. I don’t think I went back till my sister left for work. I snoozed a little until my med alarm went off. I didn’t get up right away but had to because of my bladder. I took my meds and then laid down again.
I got up around noon to have some coffee before therapy. I wasn’t hungry so didn’t eat anything. I thought about having some yogurt or cottage cheese but just wasn’t hungry enough. I finished my coffee and played my game before going back up to my room.
Therapy went well. We talked about the holidays and my birthday. She asked if I was suicidal and I wasn’t. For the first time I am not thinking of ending things around my birthday. I am still depressed but thoughts of death are away. Things are just gloomy.
After therapy, I got the email I have been waiting a month to get…my paper grade! I got an 86 which gives me a B for the class. I am so glad. I thought I was for sure going to get a C. It’s not official yet. But I think that is what I am going to get.
I have been resting since after therapy. I had something to eat and drank some water. I need to refill my water bottle. I have been trying to drink more but it is hard when you’re not really that thirsty. I got a slight stomach ache. I am hoping to have some dinner. I don’t know what I am going to have. Most likely soup again. Or I might have cereal. I need to find out where my sister put my box of frosted wheats. It isn’t in the cabinet. Ugh. I hate it when she puts things where they don’t belong.
I am on a steroid pack for my headaches and I keep forgetting to take the after meal doses. I took my dinner one too close to my night time meds so I have to delay taking them now. Glad I am not doing anything tomorrow. I have two phone calls I need to make and also need to text my DMH worker on our next appt as I didn’t write it down. I just looked at the calendar and the 29th is a Monday not a Friday. I am all screwed up.
My neck has been hurting me all day. I have been meaning to put heat on it but keep forgetting and I am too tired now to go downstairs. Besides, bitch is in the kitchen and I rather not be around her right now. I am kind of angry at the felon who is being a real fuck, not like he isn’t anyway. Man has no empathy in him at all. And I am so sad to hear about what happened in Australia. Gun violence has taken so many lives. It’s sickening. I don’t know when it will stop. Probably not in my lifetime. Not until better laws are made and enforced. The Constitution is a joke right now. It will be years to make it solid again. I hope by then we have made the Supreme Court better. Otherwise, things will stay as it is.
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