Christmas 2025

Christmas Day 2025

I am not feeling festive and I just want to stay in bed. I don’t want to be alive. I just feel so fucking sad. I hate this holiday. I am so irritable. I got sleep last night but around 3 I started peeing and getting up every few hours to go. I was having weird dreams. I dreamt I was in the psych hospital again.

I had a couple cups of coffee and some cookies. I need to take my migraine med. I meant to take it before now but I kept forgetting to get it out of the fridge. I just am so tired. I got another damn headache. The dogs were over the house and one of them aggravated the other and they both started barking. Then my sister (bitch) fought with her daughter. I can’t stand when they fight.

We haven’t had dinner but I still full off the cookies. I am not really hungry. I will just have a little of everything. My bro in law is making a prime rib. It’s not my favorite kind of meat. But he wanted it. We are having lamb too. I don’t like lamb.

I feel sad and numb at the same time. I can’t wait till this day is over with.