President’s Day 2026

President’s Day 2026

I slept late again as I was up every couple of hours peeing despite not drinking anything. I had a rough time with getting myself presentable for therapy. I just wanted to sleep all day. I talked about how things were going and she spent a little too long on it. Then she asked about how I felt last week and I told her I was depressed and I didn’t know where the grief was coming from. My head felt weird the whole time we were talking. I told her I felt a little out of it last night with my sister and she thinks I dissociated for a little bit.

I had a cup of coffee and a scone my sister made. I also had some yogurt. My stomach was still bothering me though I don’t know why. I just know I ended up sleeping for a few hours when I got back to my room. I was just so tired. I wrote a message to my psychiatrist telling him I had no ATP (energy) left in me and I don’t know if I am producing it anymore. My head hurt so much. I also told him that my brain feels weird.

Around 6, I decided to finally do my lab report. The hardest part was getting the pics in the file. The follow up part was difficult. I had a hard time trying to undo the highlight. I couldn’t figure it out no matter what I did. So I just left it highlighted. I created my dye and drew it and then took a pic of it to add to the file. Now I got to do pre lab for tomorrow.

I hope I wake up before 11 am tomorrow. I need to leave around noon to get to lab. I don’t know how my legs are going to be. I feel so sluggish. Last night I had a hard time trying to fall asleep. I kept thinking of doing something school related but couldn’t bring myself to do it. It took me like three hours to read chapter 2. If I had to re-read it, I would be up all night.

I have been drinking fluids and it doesn’t seem to make a difference in how I feel. I just go to the bathroom more. I am so tired of being tired. My psychiatrist called in my Ativan but the pharmacy has processed it yet. I got to call tomorrow. I am running low. I did take off the recycling off my bed. Tomorrow is supposed to rain. Great. I hope it isn’t a downpour.