I’ve been sleeping most of the day because I was up all night. I couldn’t sleep. I studied for a bit. Then wrote in my journal. I also played my game.
I didn’t eat today. I’m going to fast. I drank a lot of water through the night. My sister got me up around 3. I had my cup of coffee. It did nothing as when I came back to my room, I napped. I had some weird dreams. Thankfully none cause head pain.
There is going to be a blizzard tomorrow into Monday. I am not going to class on Mon. I’m not going out in the snow. Class will probably be canceled anyway. They just called a snow emergency.
I’m still feeling depressed. Just feel useless. But an old friend that I’ve known since kindergarten commented on my recent Pic on Facebook and he said he loves me. That made me feel better. I love the new tshirt I have on. It is so comfortable.
I have been trying to think how to make therapy better but nothing is coming to me. I know I got to talk about the suicidal feeling I’ve had all my life related to being trans. It’s four decades worth. I honestly don’t know how I survived. I remember the misery and pain. It was so tough. Some nights I just prayed for death.
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